The 100: Alone Together

Chapter 4: Tears and Bliss

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Chapter 4: Tears and Bliss

Jasper's P.O.V (idk the time.. I'm plastered.)

Well.. Monty just left our tent.. Cool.. Now I'm left alone with my thoughts. Let's see.. Where to start? Oh I know! Maya. She was so great man.. Sweet, pretty, smart... She turned her back on her entire home, her OWN people, just to help us, and what does she get in return? She gets dead. I didn't think I deserved her and I guess I was right. Yeah sure I only knew her for a short amount of time but I know she was the one. I just know it.. I didn't get much action on the Ark as far as girls go. Yeah I had my friends but I only had one girlfriend.. In grade 6.. I'm not like Bellamy or Finn.. Or hell even Lincoln.. I'm not this handsome hunk with big ol muscles. All I've ever really had is my height. Girls barely gave me a glance so when Maya came along and liked me for me I just... I can't believe she's gone. Now let's talk about Clarke for a second.. The 'hero' the 'princess'. Name one movie or story where the hero kills hundreds of innocent lives to save others. You can't.. they ALWAYS find another way. I keep trying to tell myself that she did what she had to do but I just.. I can't. There HAD to have been a way to save even just Maya.

Nate Miller walked in bringing me back to the present.

"Hey man." He sounded cautious.

"Hey." Was all I said, taking a swig of rum after, and by the way.. HOLY CRAP. Who knew 200 year old rum was so damn good?

"How you doing?" He asked sitting on Monty's bed beside me.

"How does it look I'm doing Miller?" I asked maybe a little ruder than I intended but I don't care. He took in how I looked; Rolled up on my pillow cradling the bottle like I was holding on to it to keep me from floating off the ground.

"Right... I'm sorry ma-"

"Do you think Clarke did the right thing?" I asked interrupting him.

"Well.. We're all here aren't we?" I turned my tired glance from the bottle to him. I did not look impressed. "I mean.. You, me, Monty, Harper. Almost everyone Jasper."

"Yeah.. almost." He moved over to me and sat on the edge of my bed.

"Jasper I came here to tell you.. I think what you did in that mountain was.. Incredible. The way you took charge, the way you led everyone.. You gave us hope man. That counts for something." I scoffed after he said that and unballed myself to sit up and put my hand on his shoulder.

"I tried." I said with a fake smile then got up, still holding the bottle.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"For a walk."

"Don't do anything stupid Jasper. Remember you're loved."

"Yeah yeah." I said, swatting my hand behind me.

I walked out the tent. It was cold but I was too hammered to care. I heard Monty in the distance yell "GUYS!" so i decided to go there. When I walked around the food preparation tent I saw them.. The princess, the knight, the blacksmith, the jester and... Monty. For some reason the Jester was on the other side of the fence... alright I'll stop using medieval metaphors. None of them seemed to see me because I was in the dark so I moved a little closer to eavesdrop on their conversation.

"-don't know. He doesn't seem very.. Stable." I heard Bellamy say.

"Yeah because of me." Clarke said looking down.

"He knows you did what you had to Clarke." Monty said putting a hand on her arm.

"I killed h-"

"My one true shot at love?" I interrupted from behind them and they all turned around. I was furious and upset which I'm normally not. Clarke looked like she winced.