The 100: Alone Together

Chapter 8: The Death of Me

Hello friends! Before you start reading this chapter (unless you just skip over reading this bold text :( ) I'd just like to say that a big inspiration for my 'The 100' writing is thanks to PenguinofProse! Please check this author out! Don't forget to wash your hands and please, please, PLEASE STAY HOME! I want to get back to work before this year ends!

Chapter 8: The Death of Me

Clarkes P.O.V:

There's a word for what I'm feeling right now, I thought as I gazed around the warm fire at the people who came with me on this journey. It's a German word that I learned from a book I read on the Ark. 'Sehnsucht', a feeling of longing for something unknown. I knew, from the time I landed here, that there was something I was missing. A part of me that was empty. I didn't have many friends on the Ark and that was fine. The Jahas and my family were enough.. But I still wanted to have a group, you know? People, that weren't my family, that I could come to for anything.. And that would be there for me whenever I needed them. I thought about this same thing once before when I was in the Skybox. My father was floated out of my life and my best friend.. my only friend was the culprit, or so I thought. For the first time in my life I was alone. It wasn't until I got to the ground that I felt alive but, even then, I still felt alone. It wasn't until Finn started talking and flirting with me that I felt like I actually had someone that I was comfortable with and could trust. Then it turned out he wasn't the trusting guy I thought he was and it broke me. It's funny, actually, that the only person who made me feel like I wasn't alone was Bellamy, no matter how much I disliked him when I first met him. I needed him, and he was there for me.

I realized I was staring at him next to me and quickly turned away before anyone noticed. We were all quiet. Just enjoying eachothers company while eating our rations. Raven randomly got up a minute ago and walked off. I wasn't going to ask where she was going, she can take care of herself and I know that.. Also, even though we're talking again, I doubt she has fully forgiven me for what I did. Hell, I haven't even forgiven myself. That will take some time.

"Anyone seen Murphy in a while?" Jasper broke the silence.

"Why do you care about Murphy of all people?" Octavia asked.

"He's a scumbag. I like him." He answered.

"And whether you like it or not he's one of us now." I added.

"Clarke and I just saw him. He's alive." Bellamy answered, sounding like he barely cares. Murphy did hang him so I'm sure it will take some time before he fully forgives him.

"Where do you guys think Raven wen..." Monty cut off his sentence and his face went pale. We looked at him questionably until he said, "Don't... move.." Most of us followed the order but then Jasper followed Monty's gaze and gasped,

"BEAR!" We all turned around to see a roughly 9 foot mutated grizzly bear with something coming out of its back and a single giant ear in the middle of the top of its head. We all scattered to the otherside of the fire, except Jasper who was smiling like an idiot.

"Jasper! Get over here!" Monty said through his teeth but he didn't listen. Kane ran over to us, weapon in hand. Bellamy stood in front of all of us with his arms out. Kane joined next to him aiming his rifle at the beast. The bear ignored Jasper and walked its way over to all of us.

"Don't shoot!" Lincoln whispered loudly. "If you do Trikru will be all over us."

"If I don't, this thing will be all over us!" Kane retorted back at him. The bear's attention shifted behind it after a loud gasp was heard. Once the thing turned around I saw where it was looking.. Raven and Murphy.