The Broken Soul - KL Rahul FF

Numbness taking over him

"You should have played a little bit more faster and not get out without acceleration KL." Things would have been different...then..

KL turned back and saw it was Gautam Bhai.

Gambhir- your defensive approach will never help you KL. How many times have I told you? I know you do that to accelerate, and you've done it too, in the past, but if u get out before doing that, it'll be tagged as a bad knock. I hope you look into it.

Kl dint utter a word back to GG. He just listened to it with his head low, not meeting GG's eyes.

GG noticed it, and felt a little bad. He always openly talks to everyone and KL is someone who accepts criticism wholeheartedly unlike few players he thought and that's why GG dint stop himself from telling this.

"Maybe this was the wrong time to tell" thought Gambhir.

He was about to say something when Dravid called KL for presentation.

Kl excused himself and left with the team for presentation.

Whole of the presentation, meeting with the honorable PM, drive back to the hotel was all tough things for the team.
"All this would have been a celebration , if result was opposite" KL thought.

It was apparently Rohit's last world cup, Virat had such an amazing world cup with bat, and everyone else were kids who had their first world cup.
So coach and supporting staffs were busy going to each and everyone to console them as they knew at this night the team members won't be able to console each other like they do.

Rohirat were in Virats room, both having video call with their Mahi Bhai.
They wanted to go to kids, but not today.
They were scared that they themselves will breakdown infront of the kids.
They just had a breakdown crying their heart out when Rahul Bhai came to meet them and as they were talking to their Mahi Bhai.

All the kids to were crying the whole night and Rahul Bhai along with the supporting staffs found it really difficult to console them.
The ever composed Jaddu, the always smiling Jassi too couldn't control their tears this night.

Rahul Bhai himself was devasted and needed some space. But as a coach he can't be doing that, so he thought that heel only meet and talk to people who he feels those need that. But to his surprise whoever he saw needed that.

Everyone except KL was crying their heart out. He was in his usual zen mode.

By the time Rahul Bhai met everyone, had a talk with them, and made them eat forcefully, it was around 2 AM.

That's when he saw KL coming out of the restaurant.

" He seems ok, and looks like he had his dinner " thought Rahul Bhai.

Kl saw Rahul Bhai too, just gave a faint smile and walked off.

Rahul Bhai was about to follow him to his room and talk to him but Vikram sir stopped him.

"He seems fine Jammy. It's too late now , let him sleep". Said Vikram sir.

"He was the one who scored that valuable 66, so he might not feel as guilty as others, so it's ok to talk to him tomorrow, let him sleep now" thought Rahul Bhai, not knowing  what was actually happening to KL.

Kl entered his room. He looked around and saw all the celebration items they bought and kept. The team planned and bought everything in prior and it was all kept in KL's room.

Flashes of the loosing moment, people's blame, Gautams bhai's blame all started coming into KL's mind.
He wanted to cry out loud, but he was not able to do that.
He saw many of his team members crying and he was not understanding that why is he not able to do it.
He felt all numb.....
He went towards the celebration items, started them throwing away in frustration, in a hope that at some point he will be able to cry, but all went in vain.

He dint even lie down to sleep, cos he was sure that he wouldn't be able to.
Even talking to Athiya dint make him feel better.

He just sat there seeing the highlights, he saw his innings and was cursing himself.

" I should have started hitting from first only, why dint I?
"I single handedly made my team loose the world cup"
"Everyone, the whole India will be blaming me now"
" I shouldnt have even taken up cricket "
"I'm a good for nothing "

And he did one of the worst thing  to do at that moment,which the management and  seniors in the team have restricted him to .........

He was scrolling through Twitter and Insta, seeing all the trolls and comments of people.
He knew he shouldn't be doing this, but he wanted to hurt himself more.

"I deserve all this hate....i deserve all this"

That whole night for him went like that, him cursing himself.

Precap- Heated argument between Virat and Kl.
Virat- "It's because of your slow       knock only we lost this. Don't blame others."

AUTHOR'S NOTE

Sorry guys, typed this chapter while working when I got time. So it wasn't great.

Do give me your feedbacks.

Should I continue this?

I'm in doubt now as I'm suddenly running out of ideas ...lol
Started with a lot of enthusiasm, but lost somewhere..
If anybody wants me to continue, then I'll. 
And sorry for making Hulrat fight in the precap.