It's not like that || Rudy Pankow

Another day another film day

Julies POV:

It's the next morning, 6:30 am, me and Madison just woke up, I'm in the bathroom to get ready, while Madison get dressed, I make myself a ponytail, bc on set I'll get a new outfit, Frisur and makeup. I go out of the bathroom and in my room, as soon as I walk in Madison go out and in the bathroom, I put on a basic pair black jeans, with a white shirt, it's hot in outer banks, bc it's summer, but that's okay, bc we'll manly film water scenes and bc I was a swimmer when i was a kid, I love the water! I'm dressed so I go in the Kittchen to make breakfast. I just make some pancakes bc Madison loves them. Tbh I'm the only one who can really cook. I make the pancakes and listen to some music.

As I put the last pancake on the plat, Madison walk out of the bathroom and to me in the kitchen, we sit in the table and start eating. "Thanks for the food Julie, btw with who you've to film today?" Madison asks me while but a bit from the pancake in her mouth. "I've to film with Madelyn, J.D and one with Rudy, the singing scene, what about you?" I ask her while get a cup of water, "I'll film with, chase, carlicia and with Madelyn too" she told me while I sit back on the table and continue eating. "Okay, tbh I'm really nervous about the singing scene, i mean I lean the song so often, and it's my own but I'm scared that they will not like it" i told her while rubbing my hands bc I'm nervous. "No Julie! You'll make it good, you can sing so amazing!" She told or better scream to me, I smiled shy, bc I hate compliments, I don't really hate them but it's something weird, I don't really get compliments and never get, no one was ever really proud of not even my family, I did many things on my own, bc no one would really care, even to start the Fanpage for obx I don't told anyone or even better when I wanted to be in obx2 I did all the stuff on my own, I never thought I could be in a show like that, in riverdale I just played a little role but in obx I would play a main character and now I'm the character, I didn't told my mother bc I thought I would never be in the show, but now I'm, I obviously told it to her then but I was scared that she would say no, bc to move from Germany for America is something that not ever 19 year old girl do, but here I'm, living in my apartment, eating with Madison pancakes, while I think about my text for the song and having friends that everyone would die for, bc they're the best! 

Madison snapped me out of my thought, bc she grab her key, I stand up to get my phone and my keys for the apartment, we walk down to the car. I got in the passenger sit, while Madison drive, I think about my song text and start getting nervous, I never sang for anyone, only to Jonas, but even that made me nervous, it was okay at the end, but I'm scared to sing in front of my friends, no one really know that I can sing, and I'm even more nervous about the reactions especially about Rudy's, he's my best friend but this wasn't always, we first hated each other or I more pretend it, I've tbh I had a huge celebrity crush on him (I mean he's hot as hell) but he obviously didn't know, as I was first on cast I even had a crush on him like that, bc he was so hot (he still is!) but of some reason we both start hating each other, he start dating Elaine so I never told him I liked him, only the girls know it (not Elaine!). We became friends and now I'm not in love with him anymore. I'm his best friend and I think that's good, I know we're often pretty close but that's all just platonic, it's now normal to say that we love each other or cuddling, it seems like we're together but we're not, we're friends and I love him, he's amazing and so funny, I understand why Elaine loves him. 

I thought about that a long time, bc when I looked up I saw the set. I go out of the car. "Okay Bailey, I've to go in the trailer and then I've some time before I start filming, but you've to film soon so I'll see you later, love you babe!" I told her and hugged her quick, "I love you too, bae!" She told me and we both make our ways, I go to the trailer, where Kaila (my makeup and hair stylist) welcomes me, I sit on the chair In front of her and she makes my hair and make up, we talked about my scenes and about life, when she was ready I put my outfit on , I said bye and went out.