He said "Forever". He made me believe and trust. He made me love when I didn't want to. I trusted him and he used me. He broke me and glued me back just to break me even more. He lied to me with his eyes and hugs, smiles, words, and those stupid th...
I'm home. Athena dropped me off an hour ago. I'm sitting in my room. My parents are at work no surprise.
I feel blank. I loved him.
You still love him.
Loved.
Love him.
I fight with my thoughts.
I sigh. I get up and walk to my stash of cash. I need to forget I put the money and call the plug my cousin goes to.
He texted me that he's here and I go down stairs after straightening the money.
I go out and head to the black Dodge Challenger he brings the window down "Elara?" I nod he nods.
He smirks " First time?" He asks I smile " is it that easy to notice?" I asks tucking some hair behind my ears.
He chuckles " no, not at all" he says sarcastically shaking his head smiles.
I hand him the money " you wanted hybrid, right?" He asks taking the money.
I nod with a smile he hands my the bag. I take it and put it in my bag " You have a grinder and rolling paper?" He asks.
I shake my head no, ughhh I'm making a fool out of myself. He laughs " Bruh, get in" he says opening the lock.
I sigh and get in the front seat he faces me he is wearing all black he has a black long sleeve and a silver chain on top of his shirt he has a ring on his pinky finger and there are tattoos on his hands he turns and looks at the back moving things around " Here" he says handing me a grinder and the rolling paper.
I thank him and put it in my bag. I take out more money to pay him for it but he shakes his head smile.
" Nah, free for first time customer." He says I smile and out the things in my bag.
" What your name?" I ask him he smile looking at me with his brown eye " just call me RJ" he says.
I smile and nod, okay that a nice name " I'll see you later RJ." I say smiling getting out of the car and close the door.
He leans over and looks at me through the window he smiles at me " be safe" and with that he speeds off.
He is sweet, he has slick back brown hair and pretty pale skin.
He hot to.
I walk back to my room and I take the things out. Ima forget anything that happened.
I take the weed out and put it in the grinder. I place enough of weed on the paper.
I roll it up and pinch the side then twist the end. I sigh finally finished. I get up and get my lighter.
I get stupid high right know. I can't quite stand up the well so I'm chilling sitting down taking another pull and enjoying the feeling it's gives me.
Man, this shit is good why do people say not to do this again I think giggling. I feel like a galaxy is swirling around me. I smile.
Forgetting the pain, and the hurt that lingers in my chest. I feel I tear slip and I'm quick to wipe it away.
My stomach growls, oooo I'm hungry I get up from the bed and fell unreal. Oh my god this is the strongest derealization. I shrugg and rush down to the stairs.
I open the fridge and there's nothing really there to eat. So I make some thing up. I grab sandwich bread and sour cream I spread it on the bread I put ham and I end up dining Chick-fil-A sauce.
I put it all together and I take a bite. Eh good enough.
I got back up stairs I open the door and I scream. Cyprus is sitting on my bed. He look serious and his hair is all over.
" get the fuck out" I snap " Elara, please listen." He says putting his hands up.
I'm quick I rush up to him " no you fucking listen" I say pointing to him.
He drops his hands a tear slips " you, listen" I cry
I'm standing face to face with him " I" I say pointing to myself " I SAW THAT FUCKING GOOD IN YOU" I yell tears tuning down my face.
" I GAVE MYSELF TO YOU, I SHOWED YOU MY LOVE" I sob " AND I TRIED TO HELP YOU WHEN SHE WAS TELLING YOU SHIT."
" I tried to take care of you and protect you, cause that's what I do Cyprus!!!" I say " I protect the people I love, I take care of them and makes sure they are not hurting." I says stabbing my finger into his chest.
I stop my rant and cry. He grabs me and hugs me, I cry in the crook of his neck " I'm sorry, Elara" he says in a softy voice.
I cry more harder. Cause this this moment him hugging me feels like home.
He feels like home.
His smell.
His hug.
His touch I've grown used to it.
I cry cause I know I lost that. Cause I know he still loves Libitina. Cause that's why he is here. To say sorry so he won't feel guilty when he gets with her.
I pull away wiping my tears. " I'm so sorry, Elara really" he says again " I don't know what I was thinking, I was drunk and I just I don't know i was mad and she was ther-" Yes but that still dose not give you a fucking reason the do that" I cut him off.
Looking at him in the eyes. " Look, Cyprus I love you and you know that but I will not stand here begging you to stay and hurting myself even more." I say breaking my heart with every word I speak.
" If you don't feel that same just tell me and go with her, cause I know you still love her." I say he looks down at his hands
Cyprus eye darken and looks up and I step back. Fuck.
Know this is that Cyprus that scares me. He has that devilish look in his eyes that raises the hair on my arms. He smirks when he looks at me and raises his eyebrows.
He gets up and I step back. " What makes you think I'm going back to her." He says walking closer to me. " I mean I obviously don't feel the same way, but I never said I was going to stop fucking you." He grins.
I put more space between us my heart starting to race " No, that's not how a relationship works." I manage to say.
He chuckles. He steps up and closes the distance between us he grabs me by the chin forcing me to look at him. " oh baby, your mine." I pull away from his grasp and shove him away.
His eyes darken " I'm not your fucking property." I snap " Get the fuck out." I tell him. " I'll get you my little bitch, just watch." He says before walking out of my room.
I scream, mad from all of this and kick my bed frame then I regret it cause it hurt like a bitch.
I sink to the floor and hold my head with my back to the wall.
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RJ Orlov Brown eyes, Brown hair Russian, American, 21 years old
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