Save Me.

Chapter 19

Tadams POV

I wake up to my alarm. The song Riptide by Vance joy plays over. I push the snooze button on my phone and blink several times at my phone. Am I dreaming? I keep thinking to myself. Blake sent me a text message that I couldn't get over.

Dear no one, everyday I get tired not in the sense that I need sleep just emotionally. I stare at myself in the mirror and list all my imperfections. Then I punish myself. I know I should not have bad thoughts about myself but I can't help it. I don't think I've eaten right in a while because I feel fat. When I sleep I have nightmares that Tadam will leave me because I'm not exceptional. I don't want to......anymore
Yours truly , Blake

I quickly get up brush my teeth and shower. So Blake has felt this this whole time I thought she was ok. I thought she could count in me and let me be there for her. I quickly dress and look at the time 7:45. I say a quick good morning to my mom and race out to the car.

Wait I'm coming Blake.

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I arrive minutes later and rush up to the door. I knock at the door repeatedly. The door is suddenly swung open. I sigh in relief to see Blake. "H-hey Tadam wh-" she begins to say but I pull her in a hug. She tenses at first but then moves her arms up to my neck. "Don't scare me like that lovely. I-i don't want you to be thinking like that I would be lost without you." I hug her tighter before she pulls back.

"Umm I don't know what your talking about Tadam." I furrow my eyebrows in confusion.

"What do you mean?"

Blake POV

I am clearly confused. Why did Tadam come to my house at 8am? What was he even talking about?

He pulls me into a hug. I'm surprised at first then wrap my arms around him. " "Don't scare me like that lovely. I-i don't want you to be thinking like that I would be lost without you." He says

" Tadam I don't even know what your talking about." I say I dont think I'm moving soon.

"You sent me a message of my guess how you feel. I came over here to stop you if you would-" he stops there for me to fill the blank. He quickly pulls his phone out to show me the text.

I gape at the words, my eyes widen. I never meant to send this to him. I must have been tired last night and did that. Tears start to build up but I bite my lip. "I never meant to send this to anyone , sorry I'm so sorry."
He shakes his head

" don't be sorry,I hadn't noticed the way you felt. I should have-" I grab his hand to pull him upstairs to my room. I mumble a quick 'for privacy' to him.