Save Me.

Chapter 25

blake pov:

2 weeks later .......
They tell me not to worry he'll be ok, but I know better. Sometimes you don't make it, you just die. That is what I'm feeling like, like i'm already dead. I've not forgiven him in person and im afraid it'll be too late.

I haven't slept properly in days. I want to see him, no, need to see him. I want to cry my heart out to him and tell him I am sorry. For being an idiot, he has forgiven me a lot of times and I couldn't even listen to him.

I get up from my bed and walk over to my bathroom. I have been doing this more often. I grab a razor and take the blade out. I put it under my other cuts and glide it across my wrist. I let out a wimper then recover by biting my lip. Hard. Enough to taste blood. I quickly rinse it away as I hear the door wobble.

"Blake? Breakfast is ready." She says through the door. I am glad I locked it.

"I'll be out." I say weakly. My voice sounds fairly dull but I don't care. I roll my sleeve down and walk out. I go downstairs and sit at the counter.

"You hungry?" My mom asks.

"No." I say coldly

"You sure you haven't been eating properly, and i-"

"I'm ok I gotta go to school now, bye." I rush away and don't make eye contact.

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I keep my head down as I enter the doors. I really don't want to be bothered. I open my locker but it is slammed closed. I sigh and look up at who it was.

Her bright blonde hair is annoying. I look over her shoulder and Jane is standing with a stupid grin on her face. I'm not in the mood today.

"What?" I ask

"What do you mean what? You know why I'm here.'' The familiar blonde says. Hannah I think. One of Tadams many friends.

"No, I don't really.'' I snap, her scowl is bold on her face.

"Well Jane told me you got Tadam in an accident." The sound of him name out loud is so heartbreaking. How dare she blame his- well it kinda is my fault if I were to leave alone no one would have been in that accident.

"It's not true, it wasn't on purpose-"

"So you admit it's your fucking fault he's in a hospital." She begins to draw people's attention.

I shake my head. " I wasn't even in the car-" she stops me again and I feel like crying and screaming. I bit the inside of my cheek.

"Well it doesn't fucking matter it was your fault. Don't admit it I don't care but I know it was you, you piece of sh-"

"Hey leave her alone." One of Tadams friends say. I don't bother to remember half of their names.

" I -I don't have to listen to you, anyway she is the one who got Tadam in an accident and I won't -" I can't take it. I won't stand here and take all of this.

I walk away but someone pulls me back. "Hey Blake don't take that it's bull I know you aren't like that. Look she's just trying to give you a hard time." He says

"I know and it's working she's been doing this a while. I just try to ignore her but today just really isn't the day." I explain to him. I'm still unsure of his name. Not that I really care at this moment.

"I didn't know she's been doing this. Sorry I guess, but why have you been avoiding me, not only me but..."

I don't want to answer this. I've been trying for a while to avoid them to help Tadam. I never wanted to take him away from his close friends. Then again they kinda are a bad influence.