Addicted to the way it hurts (Heikazuscara)

Chapter 12

!! TW: p@nic attack, strong language

The next afternoon, Heizou sat in the seat in front of the vice principals desk. The man had called him to his office for a little chat, unlike every other student, Heizou had nothing to fear when he was ordered to that place. Instead he could be looking forward to a praise each time he entered that particular room.

"Thank you for your help today, Shikanoin. You did a great job!" The vice principal complimented the student who had done a few tasks for him that day.

"You're welcome. I'm always happy to lend a hand." Heizou was proud of himself as he spoke.

"There is one last thing I'd need your help with today." The vice principal said "I know classes are over already but I really have a lot of work to do today..."

Heizou sighed internally. He had done a whole lot already, guess that's what it took to be a teacher's favourite. "What is it that I need to do?" He asked politely.

"There's just one student in detention today and i have to supervise him. But I got a lot of stuff due tomorrow, it would be a great help if you could supervise that student today." The man stood up and placed a hand on Heizou's shoulder "I trust you with that, Shikanoin." He said as his cold grey eyes stared down at the younger.

Heizou didn't like how close the man was, neither was he in the mood to supervise a student who somehow managed to be so dumb as to get into detention. But he had to do it, he needed to maintain his position as the vice principal's favourite. After all, that title came with lots and lots of advantages.

"Alright. I am going to look after that student." Heizou replied. "I'll get going right away and do my task!" With those words he quickly got out of that uncomfortable situation and headed straight to the detention room.

The green eyed one opened the door to the detention room and couldn't believe who he saw sitting there. He took a breath as he stepped inside and closed the door.

The student in front of him was looking down onto his desk, scribbling something onto the surface with a black marker. He paid no attention to Heizou's sudden presence in the room.

It was that guy... that guy who had a half of Kazuha's heart, the heart that Heizou wanted to own all by himself. Heizou couldn't hold himself back. He walked closer to Scara and slammed a hand down on his desk.

Scara flinched a little and quickly looked up to see who dared to bother him, when he was already feeling like beating up a whole room of people. "What the fuck?!" He yelled before the confident look on his face suddenly faded when he saw that green eyed 'perfect student' right in front of him.

Heizou glared down at him, pure anger in his eyes. "You hurt Kazuha." He said sternly "You punched him until he had wounds all over his face." He stated, not taking his intimidating eyes off of the other. "Stay the hell away from him."

Scara's eyes widened the moment he had heard that name. For a second, he seemed vulnerable but the blue haired quickly went back to his usual unbothered self. "Do you think I care about what happens to him?" Scara hissed, raising his voice. "You're lucky I stopped myself from going further with him. And I don't even want to see Kazuha anymore, I've gotten bored of him." He rolled his eyes and continued. "What the hell are you even doing here, Shikanoin?"

"I was asked to supervise you during detention." Heizou replied confidently which seemed to be enough of an explanation for the other as he didn't ask more questions.

There was a weird silence between the two before Scara sighed loudly.

He crossed his arms and leaned back in his chair. "You gave Kazuha those hickeys, didn't you? Right after he slept with me, you made out with him."

Heizou wasn't planning on denying it. "I did." He couldn't hold himself back from rubbing salt into the wound. "You wanna know something? Kazuha likes me way more than he ever liked you."

"THAT'S NOT TRUE!!" Scara yelled and jumped up.

"Oh, but it is true." The other's voice was quiet but it was clear and sharp. He was smiling at Scara with a bit of pleasure at his reaction. "And he doesn't need you when he has me by his side."

"THAT'S A LIE!" Scara shouted and tears were forming in his eyes. "THAT'S NOT TRUE!" he was starting to get anxious, very anxious at the thought that he had only been a toy for Kazuha while in reality Kazuha loved Heizou. He couldn't stand that, that couldn't be true, no.

"Face the truth, Scara." Heizou's voice remained the same but to the blue haired one it began to sound muffled.

"SHUT UP! SHUT YOUR MOUTH YOU ASSHOLE!" Scara was unable to control himself anymore, tears were streaming down his face and all he wanted to do was beat Heizou up but his body was trembling, he couldn't move and his vision was blurry.

Suddenly Heizou began to feel a bit guilty. Was that fear in the other's face? Sadness even?? Maybe he shouldn't have said all those things. Maybe... no, it was impossible, Scara was a bad person, Kazuha only talked good about him because he had been manipulated into it, that must be it.

A loud thump pulled the green eyed one out of his thoughts. He looked down and saw Scara lying on the ground, gasping for air.

Heizou looked at Scara in shock. What had happened? He just wanted to piss him off, not make him break down in tears.

He walked up to him and crouched down. Heizou had to help him but he wasn't sure what to say or do.

He didn't know that Scara's emotions were so strong. If he had known, he wouldn't have been so cruel to him.

"Are you okay?" Heizou asked carefully, but regretted it instantly as he realised what a stupid question that was.

"g-go away! leave me alone" Scara cried out and tried to push the other away but he was too weak.

"Scara, I..." He tried to think of something to say but nothing came to him. If anything, he was probably making things worse. He shouldn't have said those terrible things to him.

Scara tried to back away and hit his head on the desk behind him. It hurt and he cried out a little more, screamed and his trembling got worse as well.

Heizou couldn't watch this anymore. He reached out to the blue haired and pulled him closer. "Just breathe, okay?"

"I... cant-" Scara managed to get out between his gasps. His eyes were red from crying and even more tears streamed down every second.

"Just try to calm down and breathe, it's going to be okay." He wrapped his arm around the other's shoulder to comfort him.

Scara wanted to push Heizou away, he wanted to run but his body automatically leaned into the touch. He listened to Heizou's breathing, he knew he should try to match his breathing to the other's but he couldn't, he was too overwhelmed.

"It's alright...just focus on your lungs." Heizou said softly and tried to guide Scara to take deeper breaths. "Please...try to calm down.." He whispered in an almost desperate way. He really couldn't bear seeing the blue haired like this.

Scara closed his eyes and tried to do as he was told. Slowly, he was able to feel the air in his lungs again and his body was calming down a little.

"That's it, that's it, keep breathing, you're doing great." Heizou assured.

Once Scara's breath was steady, he felt exhausted, his eyes felt heavy and he mumbled a quiet "I want.. to go home" while leaning against Heizou's chest.

Heizou sighed in relief and maybe also in defeat. "Just rest now, okay?" He suggested before he stood up, holding Scara in his arms. The latter unconsciously wrapped his legs around the other's waist for a better grip.

The green eyed one felt a little something in his stomach as he looked down at that sleepy face resting on his shoulder.

"oh fuck it." He mumbled before exiting the school building and heading for Scara's apartment.