Bleeding Heart 💔

CHAPTER ONE

My heart hurts, It felt as though an invisible hand was squishing it. I could feel that my heart was injured, punctured in so many places by a fist I couldn't see. I could feel the blood all over it, I could even smell it. "Breathe Sarah, breathe" was all that i could say to myself to remind myself to stay alive, trying to convince myself that it was all a bad dream born out of watching too many movies on heartbreak, but it wasn't a dream, oh it wasn't. What I was experiencing was as real as the air that I couldn't breathe.The pain was unexplainable.

My breath was coming in short successions, I was starting to feel woozy. My hand was on the left side of my chest, rapidly hitting my chest in a failed attempt to calm my racing heart. Was this it? Was this the pain of heart break people talked about? It was a lot worse than they described. Or was it because I had never experienced it and never even expected it? Hold on! I know you might be wondering how I got here. Let me take you back to the beginning.

Jason Okpara and I met four years ago and we started dating a year after. I had just finished my NYSC and was eager to get a job. Well as luck would have it, I did get a job as a builder at one of the most prestigious Building firms in Abuja. Oh Yes! I'm a female builder and I'm proud of it. I am also very good at my job. Jason was one of my clients. One of the most amazing clients I had. He didn't stress me much, he knew exactly what he wanted from the inception of the project to the finishing. He was smart and very calculative. I didn't fall in love with him immediately, but I was drawn to him and when he asked me to be his friend, I said yes in a heartbeat.

The first time I met Jason, I wasn't exactly moved by his physical appearance because I was more focused on being professional, but the moment we spent more time together because of the project, I began to notice him. Jason was a perfect definition of tall, dark and handsome. He was like a god that came down to earth. He was beautiful with his well defined jaw line, well maintained beards, soft pink lips, beautiful brown eyes that you could find it difficult to look away from once you looked at them. And when he smiled, oh gracious God, his smile could light up a room, once his lips gave way to beautifully arranged set of white teeth, I find myself smiling back.

Let's not even forget that he was well over six feet tall with a body that looked so unreal, I mean how can one man be so beautiful? How can one man posses such amazing attributes? He always spotted a suit and he always looked so manly and beautiful in them. He gave this dangerous but calm aura. Almost as if he was saying "I'll handle.you if you mess with me, but I can also be gentle to people who are gentle with me." Without actually saying it out.

Now you might be wondering who I am? Well, let me introduce myself. I am Sarah Ubah. First class graduate of Building technology and a builder at Steve and Jay's (SJ) construction firm Abuja. I'm dark skinned, a bit chubby with curves in all the right places and a well accentuated waist and well rounded ass of course. I'm five feet tall, I have brown eyes with long beautiful lashes and well arranged eye brows. I mean I barely draw my brows cause they look so natural and already well defined that I don't need to bother. I have small pink kisseable lips. Not so small but well, small. I am also blessed with thick long natural hair and well I always make sure to stlye it differently everytime because, well I love my hair and I love showing it off. I mean I can't put in so much effort in maintaining my hair and not show the off.

Now that you have met me, let's continue our story. Jason made me giddy everytime I looked at him. His maturity when he's being serious and his playfulness when he's joking around. I just wanted to be around him all the time. Well after our business deal ended, I thought we wouldn't talk anymore so I decided to kill or rather try to kill my feelings for him. But he kept calling and we kept talking. We started going out more often on casual dates and dinners but as friends cause that's what he said. Well some months after he finally asked me out and we started dating as a couple. With Jason as my man, I was always so happy. He made me so happy and it was crazy how quickly we fell madly in love with each other.

Everything was going on so well. But two years into our relationship, I noticed some changes. He wasn't calling or texting as much, he didn't visit as much either and our sex life was dwindling as well. I spoke to him about it and he blamed it on work stress. I didn't believe him. It had to be more than just work stress. Well we tried to reignite the spark in our relationship and it was going great. We were back to normal and were already talking marriage. How many kids we wanted to have, where we wanted to spend our honeymoon and so on. I was so happy, so so happy.

Well fast forward to now. Today was meant to be our three years anniversary and Jason had reserved a table at the restaurant where we had our first date as a couple. He got me a dress and added a note that said he had a surprise for me. My joy knew no bounds because naturally I was expecting a marriage proposal. I mean who wouldn't? We've been together for a long time and we loved each other.

I got dressed and prepared to go to the restaurant. He couldn't pick me up because he said he had some things to do before I got there and I didn't take it to heart. I hailed a cab and went to the restaurant. I noticed him sitting by the window. He looked as handsome as always. I walked into the restaurant and just his eyes on mine had me smiling from ear to ear. Finally, he was going to ask me to be his wife. I tried so hard to mask the excitement I was feeling. I got to the table and sat opposite him after giving him a kiss which he returned rather reluctantly. Again I paid no mind to it.

We ordered food but neither of us could eat. I couldn't eat because of the joy I was feeling but I had no idea why Jason wasn't eating. I asked him and he said he didn't just have an appetite. And then he said he had something to say, and I asked him to go ahead. He talked about how far we've come and how I've given him so much love and how grateful he is. And then he said that our relationship wasn't going to work anymore because he didn't love me anymore. He was in love with someone else, my youger sister.

Wait, What?! My sister? Was he being serious or was this a prank? I looked around for cameras but there was none or maybe they were hidden. This HAS to be a joke.

Why break up with me in my favorite restaurant? Why buy me a dress just to break my heart? And why my sister? What did I do wrong? I was everything I could be to him, I was submissive and understanding, I was hardworking and I didn't nag him. What did I do wrong? While I was still questioning myself in my head, Jason spoke again and what he said finally destroyed my heart.

He was lonely and that was why he asked me to be his girl. He never loved me but he tried to be good to me and the minute he saw my sister, it was love at first sight. Wow Jason! Nice one. How do you date someone for three years and yet never loved them? So every "I love you" was a lie?

I couldn't move, my eyes suddenly got blurry as I let my tears fall while Jason just got up and left me there after settling the bill. I needed to leave, I was attracting too much un-needed attention. I tried hard to get up but as soon as I managed to stand, I collapsed on the floor and everything went blank.