all eyes on you - carlos sainz jr F1

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Carlos keeps a light conversation going, I answer as many of his questions as I can occasionally asking my own.

"I'm pretty sure I would've heard of you if you truly won three grammys." Carlos says, his voice playful.

I smirk. "Well if you're such a good race car driver why haven't you won one of those world championships?" I ask.

Carlos puts a hand on his heart. "Ouch." He says and I smile as he does to.

He stops walking and I do too. My eyes stayed locked on his and neither of us move. I look down at his lips before my gaze falls to the ground.

Neither of us say anything and I bite down my smile as we continue walking.

I was beginning to like these people more and more.

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"That...floats?" I ask, trying to keep the waver out of my voice.

Carlos turns over his shoulder to smile at me. "Scared?" He asks, his accent thick.

"Mildly." I murmur to low for Carlos to hear. He steps up onto the boat and offers me his hand. "It's like a floating impending doom." I say and Carlos laughs.

"You're French, yes?" He asks and I nod, trying not to think about how rough the fall would be if I slipped into the crack.

"How could you tell?" I ask, the words coming out fast.

"You talk very similar to Charles when you're nervous, your words are very rushed." He says, I think he's trying to distract me and I let out a nervous laugh.

"Yeah, i've always talked fast. It's one of my fatal flaws I guess, especially when i'm on stage and theres millions of people waiting for me to open my mouth and-" I take a shaky breath. "I'm doing it now."

Carlos's smile is warm as I take the steps up to the deck. "I do the same thing, just in Spanish. I don't even notice sometimes. I imagine you're the same, no?" He asks and I nod.

"Yep. In French, i've gotten better at it over the years but-" I cut myself off with a breath as I see the view. "Wow."

Carlos walks beside me and nods in agreement. "Almost makes the floating impending doom worth it." He says, and I hear the smile in his voice.

I feel my cheeks flush with embarrassment and maybe even something else.

I hold his gaze and watch as his eyes flicker down to my lips a few times. His head inches closer to mine but before I can move I hear a squeal from behind us.

I turn quickly and see a girl waving at Carlos. Carlos sighs.

"Ex girlfriend or stalker fan?" I ask crossing my arms over my body and leaning against the railing as he waves back.

"Both." He murmurs before turning to her. "Rebecca, hi." He says and she runs up to him, engulfing him in a passionate kiss. The kiss deepens to the point where I feel like I have to look away.

When she finally releases her grip on Caros she turns to me, some emotion hiding behind her eyes. "Hi! Are you the singer for the closing night?" She says, out of breath as she looks me up and down and I feel srutinized in a way I haven't been since I was a teenager by the popular girls.

I smile as widely as I can. "Oui that's me." I say awkwardly looking at Carlos who isn't meeting my gaze.

I hadn't been misreading the signals, I was sure of it. There was something there but he had a fucking girl friend. Typical.

"Oh you're French! How...cute." She says, and from her tone I know that she's being sarcastic.

I grimace but try to turn it into a smile. "Well, I better get going. Thanks for showing me the boat, Carlos." I mutter as I walk past, noticing the way Rebecca laughs at me as I walk away.

I feel Carlos's eyes on me until I leave their sight.

My heart sting a little because I thought maybe I was finally getting somewhere after Neymar, but all men are the same I guess.

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"What do you mean he has a girlfriend?" Sarah demands. 

I shrug. "I mean just that, Sae. He had a girlfriend, and she came running up to us as he was about to kiss me." I say and she scowls.

"That fucking-Ugh! I just thought maybe after Neymar he was gonna be half decent." She explains and I scoff.

"I'd know him all of three days, Sae. It's not that bad." Even though the words come out of my mouth they don't feel right.

"Yeah I know but Lando said that...Whatever." She mutters as she sits down. "Maybe I drop Lando in case he's got a secret girlfriend."

I slap her on the shoulder. "No! Sarah, listen. Just because my faith with the male population is permanently cursed doesn't mean yours has to be." I say and she looks at me, her eyes full of pity.

"What about Harry? He was a nice guy right?" She says and I sigh, pirciking at the underside of my acrylic nails.

"Well, that's a different topic. He was perfect. That was the media's fault." I say, remincing.

Sae laughs. "That and the fact it was all for show." She says and I nod in agreement.

"When am I finally going to get lucky and find a half decent guy!" I yell, looking at the blue sky above us as we lounge outside, soaking up what little UV we can.

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CARLOS POV

I fucked up. Badly, so badly that I don't know what to do.

I'm sitting in my room, phone in hand ready to dial Camis number that Lando had supplied me with.

I had received an ambush of angry texts from him, asking me why I was ruining his  shot at happiness after I'd just ruined my own.

Rebecca and I broke up months ago after I found out she was cheating on me, however, Ferrari insisted thag the internet loved us and for the sake of the team and media we had to stay together. Rebecca seemed overjoyed and sees it as a second chance, I, however, see it as possibly one of the worst situations to be in ever.

She insists on these public makeouts in front of cameras and media, but what she did earlier was to spite Camille and it pissed me off.

I watched Camille as she left, not taking my eyes off her retreating back until after she disappeared from view. As soon as she was gone Rebeca untangled herself from me.

"Phew! You're welcome for that by the way." She says, a genuine smile on her face like she actually saved me from soemthing.

I force a smile and nod. "Yeah. Thanks."

I say knowing that all I wanted right now was for Cami to be standing with me. Her arm around me instead of Rebecca's.

And the thought scared me a little.

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sorry for any mistakes in spelling or grammar! wanted to get it up so it's been published from my phone not my computer i'll edit it all later, i promise! hope y'all enjoyed! love ya x