Are you scared yet?

Chapter 19

Just like Ga On predicted, it was very hard for him to fall asleep on the plane at first, because he was just too excited and too nervous to do so.

He didn't have that much time to do anything today, since Yo Han booked him a flight right away after their conversation and managed to get him a ticket for the early evening. For Ga On it was quite perfect, actually, because he could just sleep on his way to Zurich during his normal sleep hours. And after he did the math, he realized he'd land in Switzerland after midnight, European time, which he realized, meant that he wouldn't get to talk to Yo Han that much then, because the older would simply want to go to sleep, since it'd be the middle of the night for him. Ga On realized that it was too much of a time difference for them to coordinate their sleep schedules, and figured that going there for only two or three days was a stupid idea.

He could already feel how tired he'll be on Tuesday. Despite that, he knows it will be worth it. Everything was worth seeing Yo Han.

Thankfully, the flight was long, so besides the time to sleep, he also had some time to spare and actually think of what to say to Yo Han when he sees him. There was so much they still needed to talk about, Ga On didn't even know where to begin. He was sure two days wouldn't be enough to cover everything. Besides, he's aware that Yo Han probably has his own things he'd like to talk about, so it might take them a while to actually get through everything.

Nonetheless, Ga On is very excited about this weekend, but also a bit scared. He's scared of what might happen to them when they finally lay it all out in the open, uncover every uncertainty, talk about every inch of hurt and betrayal there is. Ga On is scared they might not survive the whole brutal truth of everything concerning their relationship.

At least he knows what he wants. He's sure of it. But Yo Han? Well, Ga On is not so sure of him. He's scared Yo Han may not see it the way he does. He's scared that the older might care about him, but that's about it. He obviously knows he means a great deal to Yo Han, but Ga On is not sure to what extent that is. He's scared he's the one who's invested in all this too much.

Ga On is simply scared that Yo Han might not want him the way he wants Yo Han. Even though the older admitted to wanting him the last time they saw each other, he was still unsure. All that because Ga On is afraid of the aftermath of their conversation. Yo Han might like him now, but will he still want him when they talk about everything?

He's not so sure.

He wants to be optimistic, but it's hard for him.

Because he knows Yo Han, he knows that even if they take a step forward, the older could just as easily take three steps back the next day. Because Yo Han isn't really experienced with relationships, with affection, and he knows that. He's sure it might be a problem for them, but he doesn't want to care about that now. He's willing to help Yo Han learn, if he wants that too.

He and Yo Han agreed that they'd meet in front of the entrance to the airport, that the older would pick him up. When Ga On got there though, he didn't see Yo Han anywhere. He stood there for a minute or two, looking around, wondering if he chose the right entrance, and was just about to call Yo Han, when he heard something that got his attention.

It was quite a loud sound of a sports car. It piqued his interest and when he spotted said car, driving and stopping right by him, he opened his mouth in shock to see who was behind the wheel. Yo Han rolled down the window on the passenger's side and spoke to him. "Get in," he simply said.

Ga On was too stunned to say something, so he quickly put his suitcase in the trunk of the car and then got in to sit next to the older. "Nice car," he said, looking around the black Camaro inside. He didn't even know why he was so surprised. It was like Yo Han to drive expensive cars. Hell, he even had one in Korea.