Are you scared yet?

Chapter 29

Being in the house all alone meant they could do whatever they wanted. That included kissing in the middle of the study and Yo Han lifting Ga On up, trying to carry him to his bedroom.

But it was quite difficult to navigate when he had his hands full of Ga On while kissing the younger man passionately. They bumped into walls a lot and Yo Han finally stopped at some point and pinned Ga On to the wall with his whole body, holding him securely so that the younger man wouldn't fall to the ground, but judging by how tightly he encircled his legs around Yo Han's waist, he was completely fine.

"Yo Han, we should get to your room," Ga On said, sounding breathless, after he managed to pull his mouth away from Yo Han's for a moment.

"No one's home, it's fine," Yo Han quickly said to him and got back to basically abusing his lips. He moved from the wall nonetheless, assessing the way to his room before diving back for a kiss. He propped Ga On a little higher so that he wouldn't fall and he walked quickly to his room.

As soon as they got there, he closed the door with his foot and pinned Ga On to the heavy door, reaching with one of his hands to lock it just in case Elijah came back early and decided to come talk to him.

They needed their privacy after all.

Yo Han was so excited yet scared at the same time that he didn't know what to do next. He had no idea how he should treat Ga On – if he should be gentle or maybe he should just let his desire overtake him.

He knew damn well Ga On wanted him as much as he wanted Ga On and that their mutual desire was crazy, but he also knew that Ga On has never been with any man like that. It was supposed to be his first time being with a guy, his first time having sex with the man he loved.

That was a lot of pressure and that's the very reason Yo Han was nervous about the whole thing.

Thankfully he wasn't alone in this and his own nervousness disappeared as soon as he felt Ga On's hands trembling on the back of his neck.

"Relax, baby deer," he whispered after breaking the kiss. He looked right into Ga On's eyes and smiled at him softly. "We're not going to do anything you don't like. Just tell me what you want and I'll do everything in my power to make you comfortable."

Ga On smiled back at him, looking very grateful and very touched. He leaned in for a kiss immediately, but this one was very slow and soft. It was a thank you and I love you all sealed into one kiss.

For some reason that made Yo Han even more nervous, knowing that Ga On was somebody he cared about deeply, someone he didn't want to hurt and he was afraid of doing so, especially since Ga On trusted him so much.

After kissing for a little while longer by the door he thought that it'd be good to finally move somewhere else, so he grabbed Ga On more securely and headed to the bed, putting the younger man down on his comforter, feeling the slight crack in his back when he did that.

He might have been an active person but he was still over forty and Ga On was still a full-grown man who worked out as well.

His back needed a little break.

As soon as he put Ga On down though, the younger man moved slightly further on the bed and then leaned in to kiss Yo Han passionately and grab his shirt to make him come forward.

That resulted in Yo Han climbing on top of him, fitting himself between Ga On's already spread legs. It was quite an intimate position and they haven't done much intimate things in the short while they were actually together, so it felt a bit weird, but also exciting. While he was staring at Ga On laying under him, he couldn't help himself and he just imagined all the things he wanted to do to the younger man.