Change My Mind- Zayn and Harry Fan Fiction

I Was So Stupid

Zayn's POV:

I've not  seen Seyma in such a long time. I wish that I could see her beautiful face again; see the sparkle in her eyes. You want to hold her in your arms all over again. You have to call her to tell her how you feel. You have to tell her that you are sorry for being so explosive about the whole Harry thing. You have to stop thinking about the past and start thinking about your future with the only girl you love- Seyma. So many days you have spent with her, thinking about all the great memories you two will make together. Now it all seems impossible. 

You searched for your phone, making a total mess in the whole house. You wish Seyma was here to help you find it. Well earth to Zayn, that's why you want to find your phone- to call her.

*Calling Seyma*

"Hello? Who is this?" You heard here sweet, kind voice once again. Her voice sent goosebumps all down your spine. You couldn't open your mouth because there would be no point. You couldn't speak out any words. You just want her to speak to you and not stop. 

"Hello? If this is a prank then I'm going to stop the whole call and-"

"Seyma. Please baby don't."

"Harry? Is that you?"

Those four words just spoken by your love hurt you like knives. Was she now with Harry? You had to  know the truth about all of this non-sense.  You felt like as if someone just stabbed you in the back- as if Harry stabbed you straight through your heart and took away the only love of your life. You felt stupid about even thinking you had a chance with Seyma again after all the things you said to her. You are stupid. This conversation is stupid. Everything you do is stupid. Your life is stupid and pointless. You have no one to live for if there is no more Seyma in your life. But before you end the call you have to tell her who you are and how you feel about her.

"No it's not Harry. It's me Zayn."

"Zayn. Please don't think that there is anything mysterious about me asking you if you were... you know... Harry."

"Oh it's okay. I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry for everything that I have done to you and that I really want you to be part of my life again."

"Zayn look I-"

"Seyma please listen to me. I don't mind if you're with Harry because, if you are happy then I'm happy as well. The love I have for you will never stop. The way I treated you then on that day... I shouldn't have treated you like that. My whole life relies on you. I don't want to live if I can't live with you. Please Seyma come back to me. I promise you that I won't hurt you in any way but please, give me another chance." 

Seyma's POV:

The words Zayn just said squashed you between your mind and heart. You know that you and Harry are not actually together but the thought of him being the father of your child made you think that you have to be with him; for the sake of the child. However, thinking of Zayn being all alone at home wandering around the house thinking to end his life because you are not with him made you want to change your mind about the whole relationship with Harry. 

You don't really know what life with Harry is like; you just know that he is older than you and that he made you pregnant. Life with Zayn is something you have already experienced. Zayn was the only guy you have actually lived with and had a relationship with. You reminded yourself what it was all like, how you felt when you were with Zayn, what you thought when you were with him. The answer is simple to the last question: you kept on thinking about Harry. Every time Harry would come over to yours and Zayn's house (which was quite often,) you thought  of how it would be to be with him. How would his hands feel like when they were holding yours? How would he talk to you? Would he use cute nicknames for you? 

"Zayn, listen. I think I need more time to think about all of this." This is the only think that escaped your dry lips. You felt really bad about having to say this to Zayn especially after all of these memories you two have made together. 

"Okay Seyma. Remember that I will always love you. Unconditionally."

"Unconditionally." 

You hung up after saying that one word which held so many things behind it. You and Zayn use this word whenever you finish talking to each other. The word it self means that, no matter what both of you do that could possibly ruin the relationship you two have; you will still love each other. No matter what. No matter.....

Those words flew through your mind over and over again. You couldn't possibly pick between Zayn and Harry. You loved both of them but your heart could only belong to one of them. To sum things up, Harry was the future father of your child and you and Zayn will love each other unconditionally. Not so easy to pick between two guys that you want to spend your life with. Every word Zayn spoke to you on the phone made you realiseb that maybe you should come back to him and just let Harry see his child. It's easier to say than do. Zayn would always say this when he had to make a hard decision. This is a very hard decision that you have to make. 

There is one person who will be with you and support you even though you might not feel the same towards him.... Niall. 

Niall always came to your rescue. He made you feel so sure about all of your decisions and thoughts. His cuteness made you feel quite protective over hi although he was older than you. While you were thinking of Niall suddenly, you heard the door open. Niall. It's as if he heard your thoughts. 

"Go on then, tell me what happened."

"Niall, a lot of things have happened. Harry came to me and I told him that I'm pregnant and just then Zayn called telling me that he loves me no matter what and I'm so confused-"

"Woah! Wait what did you say? Did you say you're pregnant? With who?"

"Oh God! I didn't mean to say that!" 

"Seyma it's alright. I won't laugh or anything. I won't judge you. As someone once said: judge yourself before judging others."

"Zayn says this."

"Oh Seyma i'm so sorry I didn't mean to say this. It just came out I swear!"

"It's okay. And yes I'm pregnant with Harry's baby."

"Well....um... I didn't expect you to say this."

Niall's POV:

The words Seyma said hurt you. You wanted to be the one that would be with her and have children with her- not Harry. Your love once again towards Seyma has been destroyed. Your feelings were so strong towards her that you definitely couldn't leave her like that when she experienced a shock from all of this. 

"Niall please help me get through this. I need you."

"Okay but promise me one thing."

"What is it?"

"Make sure you call me when something happens. I'm like your guardian angel now because I got the amazing hair, the hot body and the angelic voice. You know, I might as well do my job and be your guardian angel."

"Oh God Niall stop! You always know how to cheer me up. Thank you."

Seyma reached out to you and hugged you. You felt as if you had to give her your famous Horan hug. You noozled your head in the crook of her neck and hugged her tighter. You started to sing a song; Seyma's favourite. Over Again. She loved this song especially when you sang it only for her. After a few moments you noticed that she fell asleep while she was listening to you. You picked her up bridal-style and carried her to your bedroom. Another hard day and another day sleeping on the couch. You are only a friend for her.... only a friend....