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I quickly checked the time and it was only 7:05 making me sigh waking up only a few minutes before my alarm
I slept so hard that I thought I was running late for school
I dragged my feet over the side of my bed and stood up on my tippy toes, raising my arms up to the sky for a good stretch, making my way to the bathroom and turned on the shower before quickly shedding my clothes and hopping in. i was out in 10 minutes. I wrapped my towel around my body and walked over to the sink to brush my teeth.
Once done, I finally looked in the mirror for the first time, not caring for the reflection that stared back at me. I took the towel my hairs wrapped in off and watched as an array of coils framed my face making me start regretting not doing my hair last night
I sighed out in frustration and started putting my hair in a sleek ponytail then i did my edges and put on some chapstick.
I just kept looking at myself in the mirror feeling and looking mentally drained with thoughts of suicide slowly coming back so i opened the medicine cabinet and grabbed the bottle of xanax , taking 2 dry
I haven't been on hard drugs since i met kam and them but recently i've stopped talking to them and its been making me feel off
Shaking off my thoughts i started finding something to wear that I will feel comfortable in
After trying on four pairs of jeans, I opted for some grey joggers, a matching grey t-shirt and some all white Nike shoes. Then i put deodorant and stuff on, grabbed my bag, and went to the kitchen.
I opened the fridge and saw some strawberries, ketchup, waters, and beer making me sigh
"lemme just get these strawberries and a water"
i grab some strawberries then rinse them off and put em in a napkin
checking the time on my phone i realize i needa head out to start walking. I would've ubered but i stopped going in to work resulting in me getting fired. I even stopped responding to texts and coming to school but then Kam and Dynasty started showing up at my house . I never let them in but they kept coming
... 10 minutes later ...
I walk into the school restroom and examine myself in the mirror. My face was a little flushed, no doubt from my walk here. I made sure I didn't have any sweat stains and that my edges were still intact. Once I was satisfied with myself i leave the bathroom. The halls were filled and it was a little overwhelming, but maybe that was just cause my xanax was starting to kick in.
I kept my head down and weaved in and out of people hopping not to run into Kam, Dynasty, or Ezrah
"excuse me" i mumble every so often
"i know that ain't muhfuckin s-"
"SPIRIT" a familiar voice calls out making me walk faster
"nahh bring yo ass here , my homeboy been sad as fuck and quiet as hell without you ass"ezrah grabs my arm
"yooo what'd you take best.." Dynasty's face softens looking at my pupils
"whatt?"
"them muhfucks dilated den a bitch"
"thats besides the point dude- where you been?" dynasty asks
"home"
"for what you know that place ain't going good for you " ezrah mugs
"my momma left so im alone there"i shrug
"bro you're not there in the head right now cause yo ass too chill"
i throw my head back and get ready to respond but the bell rings
"get to class please we gon talk about this later" Dynasty hugs me
