Don't Forget Me

8//Half Past Five

I only fuck you when it's half past five, the only time I'd ever call you mine, I only love it when you touch me not feel me, when I'm fucked up that's the real me.
Blake's POV
OKLAHOMA UNIVERSITY
I'm drunk for the fourth time this week and I've only been here for 5 days, I can't feel my face, I can't feel anything, and this girl grinding on me is about to be another one night stand. The 3rd one this week. No matter how much alcohol I drink or how many girls I fuck, I still feel empty.

I grab this girl's hand, I swear I know her name, but it won't come to me right now. I lead her back to my dorm. I strip off her clothes, strip off mine, then get to work. I take all my anger & frustration out on her body. Her screams don't even turn me on. I close my eyes. I see Kiana and instantly change. I go slower and make it more passionate. It's almost like I'm making love. I'm making love to Kiana through her. I finally feel something. I pick up my pace feeling my climax building up in my stomach. I drown out the girls screams & make them sound like what Kiana's would be like. I yell out "fuck" once my climax comes. I collapse my body on the side of the girl. I open my eyes and stare at the ceiling. I feel the girl turn on her side and try to cuddle. I stand up and grabbed her stuff for her. "You should go, I have class early in the morning." I say giving her stuff to her. She frowns and grabs her clothes. I walk her to the door and open it for her. She tried to kiss me but I only let her kiss my cheek. I don't mean to hurt these girls, but I need them so I can feel something. I never feel anything, besides when I'm fantasizing about Key. I break other people's heart now so they can feel what I feel. It's been damn near 2 months why aren't I over her yet? Why is she taking so long to get over? Why won't she love me back? All I want is her but she doesn't want me.

I sit on my bed and rub my face. I feel a single tear roll down my face. I quickly wipe it away. I look at my phone and think about calling her. I haven't talked to her in awhile. Well it is 3am here so that means it's only 1am there. Maybe she's awake, she's always been a night owl and stayed up late. Of course she's up. What if she doesn't answer because she doesn't want to talk to me? Am I even sober enough for her? I just want to hear her voice. I wanna know how she's doing. I haven't talked to her since the night I told her we weren't friends. I'm gonna call her. I pick up my phone and dial her number. Before I could press call, my brother Taylor walks in. "What's up man? You alright?" he asks. I guess he noticed my eyes being red from crying. He knows how I've been feeling lately. "Yeah, I'm alright." I say dull. He shakes his head and sits next to me on my bed. "Let her go Blake." he says. "I already did and that was a dumb idea." I whisper back looking down at my feet. He pats my back and stands up. "You'll be alright soon man, don't let her get in your head." I nod and get up to go take a shower. On the walk to the coed bathrooms I kept thinking about talking to Key. I'll talk to her soon.

Kiana's POV
LOS ANGELES
"Oh my god Andrew stop!" I was laughing so hard my face was turning red. Andrew and I were supposed to be cuddling and watching a movie but he felt the need to keep tickling me. We were on the edge of the couch on the verge of falling off. "Babe we're gonna fall!" I shouted through my laughter. Of course I was right and this tickle party moved to the floor. Even though we fell he continued to tickle me. I managed to run away out of his strong grip on me. "Come back here love!" he yelled after me. I ran upstairs of his huge two story home into his bedroom hiding in his closet. I heard him running after me. I knew he saw where I went to go hide but he played like he didn't. "Oh noo where's Kiana?" I covered my mouth so he wouldn't hear me breathing and to stop from laughing. I heard his foot steps get closer and closer to the closet door. He quickly opened it and picked me up. He gently laid me on his California King Bed. He laid on top of me but straddled his elbows on each side of me, careful to not put his whole weight on me. He gently pecked my lips and smiled. "You're so beautiful baby." I smiled and started to blush. "You're not." I said smirking. He chuckled "oh really?" I nodded and kept smiling. "Well you're gonna regret that love." He got up and started tickling me again. The room echoed with my laughter. "Say I'm beautiful!" he yelled. "Never!" I managed to get out. He kept going for a little longer until I couldn't take it anymore. "Okay! Okay! You're beautiful!" I shout. He finally stops. "That's what I thought." Andrew smiled. "Now let's go watch the rest of the movie?" He asked. I nodded and he started walking out the door. I laid there for awhile still smiling. "Yeah that's right you better run!" I call out. He instantly starts running back in. "You're definitely gonna regret that now!" Andrew shouts while jumping back on top of me.

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