Feather Of Love

Lost Royalty's Lament

I break the hug with her and thank her from the bottom of my heart without even waiting for her to say anything. Returning, I go to my room and sleep alone, trying to forget all the sorrow in my head. It's like intense knives in my back that make my heart swell. I sleep with tears in my eyes.

I don't know why I can't connect with people. I don't want to talk to anyone about this. I was a little sad because Sylvia was in our mission to hunt. I didn't delve much further because I just need some time alone to heal myself from these intense struggles, and no one can feel what I'm going through. I wipe my tears and slowly touch the Drift, falling asleep, thinking about things that never give me nightmares but slowly devour my beautiful dreams.

I don't know how much further I have to go to find my mother, but I will because after all, I discovered my true nature. The nature that no one told me about—that I am a princess hidden in the shadows, a princess that no one cared for. A princess who was abandoned all her life. Good that now I know because I need to meet my mother. Throughout my journey, I smile softly, even if that pain still persists in my heart. After a deep sleep and restless eyes, I wake up hearing the beautiful birds and the loud noises of the people around this country. I look at my hand and clench it, knowing that life will move. But if I'm stuck in this situation, I will never move away.

I pack my bags and make sure everything is in place because I need to go to the next checkpoint. I see Sylvia walking toward me without a pretty smile, trying to approach me and make me feel a little bit comfortable. I didn't make any type of reaction; my eyes were cold. I don't want to make any eye contact. She looked at me so differently, as if I wanted to tell her something, but nothing in my mouth tells. After finishing all my stuff, making sure the maps are in a safe place in the bags, and ensuring everything is perfectly done, I write a letter for Lily to read because she is a good friend of Troll. I put it on the balcony with a cup of wine and look at Sylvia. I can feel the heavy atmosphere around us. 'Sylvia, we need to go to the next checkpoint. I need to find my mother.' My eyes were dark, but instead, she looks at me and hits the table with full power, with a hint of surprise and anger. She was like a monster. I didn't question; instead, I needed some answers. 'Sylvia, answer my question. Do you want to go, or do you want to follow Ethan? Answer me.'

The air gets so intense. She looks at me as if she's in a small room where no air can go in. She didn't reply; instead, she begins packing her bags, and I smirk because I know the answer will be, even if she will hate me. I will not trust anyone anyway. I go down from this building to the carriage to save the old man, still on to the next checkpoint. I go to the carriage, not even waiting for Sylvia. It's a bit truthful, but after all, she was my mate. It's not me, and I am not being cocky or even trying to be childish. Just more, I can't handle any more friendships that break my heart into pieces.

I don't need any more family or childish things. I already want to get powerful. My family is my mother, and if I can say anything else, I will say useless things. I enter slowly and let all my bags and the old man wait for Serviat to come. I didn't even make any comment; I just sit and wait. Suddenly, Lily comes in. I was surprised; why is she here? To help me or because she saw my letter? I was really like a mystery, but I don't want to be a pushover. So, I remain a mystery.

I don't want to be a pushover, so I didn't ask anything. But she didn't wait and began to ask, full of curiosity, as if she has something. 'So, where are you going to, Mia? You know your mental state is not stable after all; you need some rest. I prefer for you to go and rest more in the Shadow Kingdom.' I was surprised by her, so I narrow my eyes, knowing that she is talking to me for some rest. I replied with a little bit of a human trying not to make things more intense. 'You know my journey is a bit complex; resting is not an option. So, I have to go, and plus, you know I am stable. I don't have anything; you can see my smile across my face.'

I try to fake everything, even my smile, but nothing works. She narrows her eyes, knowing that I am faking it, and I'm not often to her. Well, I can deny that I am really annoyed, but at the same time, I was wondering. She is in the carriage; if she wants me to rest. 'So, Lily, do you want to join my journey for this reason you are here or something else?'

She laughs softly, as if I am making some type of joke. I don't know, but she was answering with her hand signals or around her brother was not with her; she was alone also. 'So, because I am the hero of the Shadow Kingdom, I have so many tasks to do, and I have so many requests to go to other places and make my head spin, and people see me as a hero. So, I have a mission to do. I don't know where you are going, but for me, I have my own mission to achieve. I hope you achieve your own mission. After all, where is this girl named Sylvia? I don't know.'

The way she began to wonder about the name of my friend Sylvia, it's just funny. The way she tries to figure out the name of my friend, I character anyway. And old man tries to move; suddenly, Sylvia comes as fast as she could. She's panting as she throws her stuff in the garage and jumps in before the horse even moves. Me and the other people were surprised because it's not just my carriage, and it's not just really in the couch; there are like two more people. So, she entered, and she looks so exhausted from the running. She looks at me a bit angry, but I chuckle because what can I do?

If she is the one who's late on the time, I don't know. I begin to feel I am a little bit harsh with her. I will try my best to recover and trust her. I hope so. 'Sylvia, you arrived. I was so worried that you would not come. I'm glad you chose the right choice.' My smiles were across my face, and her eyes were focused darkly on me, as if she wanted to hit me so hard, but she can't because three people are staring at her. She will look as if she is the one who hit the innocent little girl. Oh, I feel so satisfied with her reaction sometimes. Even if I am a good person,

I also have a dark side I can't hide. It's just that revenge on people who upset me gives me a bit of satisfaction from the inside. So, I will not do anything. Instead, I get my book, and we can read happily. Sylvia, on the other hand, was struggling to control herself, and Lily was sharpening her daggers. Suddenly, something piqued my interest—I have a really interesting dagger with me that I never use. I don't know how to use daggers in fighting; I know how to use a sword. So, I think she will like to use it for good.

"Lily, I have some items that I think will be good for you because technically I don't know how to use them, but you look very good at using daggers. So, I have a dagger that's really good, but I never use it." I handed her the dagger from the dungeon because I don't know how to use it. There might be magic, and Ethan technically ran away, so this dagger is an orphan, and I give it to her. Plus, it looks nice.

When I gave it to her, her hand was shaking with excitement. She took it and inspected the sharp edges. After that, she began to perform some tests on it. I don't know, but I think she loved daggers. Anyway, she liked it so much she began to thank me for everything I gave her. It was nothing, so I patted her shoulder to assure her that nothing would happen.

As we continued our journey, it was so peaceful, but I still didn't know where we were going. So, with my curiosity, I asked her peacefully, 'So, where is the carriage technically going?' She looked at me a little bit confused because she didn't expect me not to know. I feel stupid; I am not good at direction and learning the ways, but it's really necessary now. She looked at me, focusing on her eyes, making eye contact.

'So, first of all, we were in the Shadow Kingdom, but after that, we go to the Forest of Faith. Not all people go through it because if a good person goes through it, they will not feel anything. But if a person has so many bad intentions, they will face many types of nightmares. So, most people dislike this type of forest because it's full of magic. For me, I need to stop in this forest because I need to collect some mushrooms. They contain a high amount of energy and magic. What do you want to do in this forest?'

I hesitated a little about what I have to say, so I grabbed my map to see where the forest is and made her look at the map to help me. She began to point at different ways the forest sprawls, but it's not the way I have to go. I need to go further to that next checkpoint, so I was a bit disappointed. I returned some to the back to make her safe.

'So, technically, this forest is not my goal. I just need to go this way.' I didn't know the name, so I just pointed it out on her map. She looked at me a bit confused with worried eyes.

'The place you want to go is really dangerous. It's full of ruins of the Kingdom of the Moon. Do you have any type of business there?' I hesitated to answer, but I ended up telling her that my mother lived there. She didn't go further and instead just assumed that I wanted to finish my mission."