All you want me to be

We will all be gone

Nobody says it

but it's true

we'll all be gone one day

even me and you

when I was eight I found I was born wrong

a wire in my heart had been left too long

so yeah, they pumped me with drugs

not before my mom cried

or before the doctor told me 

"It's gonna be a long ride"

but

i don't think i got it

or if i did i can't remember

something was happening

but if i had died 

i don't think i would've know

(can i say something?)

(you have to pinky promise you won't tell anyone)

(i try to tie things back)

(i try to find a reason for everything)

(after all i was raised on butterfly effects and loneliness)

(but what if this thing that happened)

just

(happened)

(what if my depression and anxiety isn't because of anything)

(what if i just had to be scared for my life)

(what if it's just a misplaced chapter)

cause wires fry and hearts fail

but when we go beyond the vail

and we will

we'll never know

I will never know

why

what are you supposed to do with that?