World Behind My Walls (Bill Kaulitz)

20.

   "AYO!"

I jolted awake and jumped up, hearing the door downstairs slam open and voices below. "Fuck." I whispered, looking to see Andrew still dead asleep and snoring. "Wake up!" I hissed, shaking him awake. "Why are Tom and them here?"

Andrew stirred and slowly open his eyes, smiling up at me. "Hmm?"

"Why are Tom and them here?" I hissed again,the voices downstairs getting louder.

His smile that was once there quickly faded, coming to the realization. "Fuck!" He shouted, wasting no time to hurry and jumped up, putting his clothes back on. "I completely forgot, we're supposed to work on some of their music today shit!"

I just sat there with the blanket over my chest. "What do I do?"

"You can just sit there and look pretty." He winks, pecking a quick kiss to my forehead.

"Now isn't the time for jokes. I don't want them to see me like this."

"Then put on your clothes and sneak out once I take them to the music room. I'll text you when the scenery is clear." He promised, closing the door swiftly behind him.

I stared around his room and looked at the posters and guitar by his closet. I let out a heavy sigh and got up, searching for my clothes.

There was a mirror in his room and I stared at my naked body, hickeys covering my chest and neck. He really did a number on me with them. I tried not to focus too much on me and hurriedly put my clothes back on.

I heard their voices disappear and a door slam shut, and I sat on the bed waiting for his text. I finger comb through my hair and tried to fixed my smudged eyeliner. My phone dinged and I hastily picked it up.

Andrew: they're all here and setting up their instruments so now's the chance

I let out a sigh of relief and looked for my shoes. "Where are they?" I mumbled to myself. I got on my knees and looked under the bed, sure enough they were there. I crawled under and grab them, holding the laces. I slowly open the door and tip toed out, closing the door as quietly as I could. I was holding my breath as I went down the stairs, scared I may blow my cover and make them aware someone else is here.

My feet landed on the first floor and I smiled in satisfaction, racing to the door.

"Amber?" I yelped out loud and dropped my shoes, spinning around to meet Tom eyes. Fuck. Tom confused face was now with pure shock as he scanned my body, eyes hovering on the scattered hickeys.

"I'm not h-here!" I stuttered. My urges was telling me to run but I was frozen in fear. "Please don't let them know I'm here." I begged.

Tom didn't say anything and just continued to stare at me with his mouth open. I heard footsteps behind him and cursed to myself. What now?

"Are you back with the so-" The voice immediately cuts off. I made eye contact with Bill, feeling like I'm about to throw up. Bill had the same reaction as Tom's, except he seemed more speechless than Tom and Tom only said my name. I didn't know what to do or say but my body finally snapped and I ran, like I just ran for the hills. I heard my name calling behind me and I continue running down the road. This is not how I planned my morning. Oh I shouldn't have done that.

"Amber wait!" Bill shout, catching up to me.

"Go away!" I panted, embarrassed. It was like the glass incident all over again.

"Where are you going?"

"Home!"

"But that's so far away on foot!" He argues. I felt my body lunge back as he grabbed me to him. I hit his chest and fell on my ass. "Oh my god are you okay?"

"Never better..." It came out more as question.

Bill grabbed my hands and lifts me up. I stared at the ground and refused to look at him. I felt his eyes burn into me and my skin became a light shade of red. I was praying I'd go unnoticed. I thought Andrew said the case was clear.

"Did he take advantage of you?" He finally asks.

My head whipped to him and now I was glaring at him. "What? No! It was completely consensual!" Bill didn't respond to it and glanced at my hickeys. I felt naked in front of him like this and folded my arms across my chest. "Do you want my jacket?"

"Please..." Bill hurriedly took his jacket off and wrapped it around me, moving my hair out of my face.

"Andrew told us he dropped you off home but I see that wasn't the case."

"Bill." I warned.

"What? I'm just saying. Let's go back to the house and I can take you home if you want."

We both made our way back to Andrew's house in silence. There everyone was now in the kitchen eating snacks and I wanted to die on the spot. Andrew noticed me and Bill and he had this look on his face I couldn't describe before plastering it with a smile. "Hey Amber, so glad you could join us!" He lies.

Gustav and Georg didn't buy it though, looking at his hickeys to mine that was still visible, that and I still had on yesterday's clothes. Georg had a smirk plastered on his face as he took a sip of his drink, I glared at him.

"She's actually about to leave, I'll take her home." Bill informed, grabbing the keys.

"Oh I can." Andrew stated.

When he attempted to grab the keys from his hands Bill snatched his hand back. "No I can." His voice was calm but you could tell it had an edge to it, staring hard at Andrew. Without warning Bill grabbed my hand and lead me away, I mumbled a quick bye and the door slam shut behind me. Bill opened the door for me and I buckled up.

On the way there he put in a Rammstein CD and that was the only thing you could hear. We didn't speak to each other. I avoided it and just stared out the window.

The ride was silent and long, I rested my head back on the seat and sighed.

Thankfully we finally made it to my house and he pulled into the driveway, turning off his car. He turned to face me and I mustered up the courage to look at him. "Are you gonna dad me?"

"What?" He squints. "I just want to make sure you're okay."

"I am Bill, I got drunk and had sex that's all."

"But I just wanted to make sure he wasn't taking advantage of you..."

I sighed and sat up. "He didn't Bill, I was the one to take off his pants." He flinched at that and immediately felt bad. He didn't need to know that type of information. "He didn't take advantage of me. I promise."

He stared at me long and hard before slowly nodding. "Okay, that's all I wanted to know."

"I'm fine." I nodded. "Thanks for taking me home though. I tried running for it but Tom caught me in the act."

Bill chuckles. "I see, how was you going to get home anyway?"

"I honestly don't know...I just knew I had to get out of there before you saw."

"Mission failed." We both laughed and I took off my seatbelt. When I took off the jacket he laid his hand on me to stop me. "Keep it, I don't wear it often."

"Sure?" He nodded and I smiled a thanks, getting out the car. "Bye, I'll see you later." I waved as he drove off and went inside. I still want to disappear.