Night and Day

The last day

A wallflower is the one thing that I dread to be. I have never experienced being one. I am naturally friendly, because that is how I survive. Since if I hug the fact that the first person that is supposed to stay with me until half of my life left me, nothing will happen to me. I will have a heart that will never be free until I die. I don't understand why other people wanted to be lonely when they have a real family to be with, they love being lonely , they love when they are in pain, then think pain is the mother of everything that is so beautiful, they feel something because of it, me, I  just  want to feel the most simplest thing that they don't want and it is to feel normal,  to have happiness as my only extreme.  Dumbledore read me like an open journal and he is staring at me with sympathy  after that.  The last test before  becoming a teacher is you have to let the head master read your deepest desires or heart  to make sure the students are in no trouble or their innocent  and their uncorrupted mind are taken with care.  I wipe my tears after I have felt that the reading was finished , it was as If the reader is hugging my heart with warmth, Dumbledore then spoke "you passed the last test " after that everything was like a wind and I didn't  realize that I am walking in the hallway staring at nothingness while walking , the students are talking with their freinds or classmates with their lips smiling,  I then saw a teenage boy recieving a flying kiss from a girl walking pass my direction, she has a cherry cheeks  and while holding her freind's hands while they are walking.  Innocents we are indeed,  we never know what will happen next or even what we will feel , tomorrow we might even feel that the rain is gone and there are only stars at the skies or that we have the power on everything,  another day after that day may be a differnt person  he or she may be inconsiderate.  I was at my thoughts  when I finally reached my room, I opened the lights by just entering inside, I breathe  in and go straight  to my closet and find a bit of a casual wear for dinner.  I took of my clothes and but on my , o -omg  the only dress that is left is the dress that aling Rose gave me , and I don't  have anything left , it is alright if you are sleeping alone with nobody to see you, the dress looks like my grandma's! Even I Don't have one, but I don't  have a choice I am sweaty and I smell that is why with a a heart that is beating fast because  of the  stares that I will get later , I wear it with the ick face.  I go outside , walked slowly because I DONT WANT TO GO THERE YET, but as I walk slowly into the haunted castle with a haunted dress  I heard girls laughing and I am praying  that there is big hairy elephant that will cross the  while farting so I Don't want to be the reason, I AM WISHING THE IMPOSSIBLE!, I AM DESPERATE, but I was heard from the above hallelujah 🙌  they're not laughing at me yes, yes! I don't look like a kid possessed  by Dumbledore or I don't look like an ancient wasted kid, I was staring at straight begging that this will be over, because I am so hungry  and I so don't  want to go out anywhere  wearing this dress.  I smile and keep a straight face while trying to let go of this embarassment, The door of the great hall is opened, everyone is sitted when I took a pick,  I can't stepped my foot ,but I did everyone was enjoying their meals while I make myself look cool and unbothered , but suddenly.... everyone looked at me and some  of Them laugh  but I keep a straight face, I can feel the sound of the laughter mostly at the third table , that T-THat ,THAT BLONDE BRAT! he is the one that laughs  the hardest but Dumbledore spoke, " Everyone just keep eating" and slowly they stop laughing, but some stared at me while murmuring things to the air.  I walked at the teachers table while trying to keep my cool and sat, EVEN  PROFFESOR MCGONAGALL  Is LOOKING AT ME AND MY DRESS, but she goes back eating when she noticed that I am conscious.   I gulped and started to hold my spoon and fork slowly and brutally peirced the chicken in front of me daggers.   After the dinner I stood up from my chair and stepped to the end of the dining platform and stepped down, as I my shoes  touched the students floor everyone looked me , some are still trying not to laugh but some don't  care,  The dress is older than this castle 🙂  and I  looked like a smelly old dirty root from a tree that is decades older than queen Elizabeth's grandmother , I walked in a normal speed trying to act casual  but then my heart,  it... it... ..beats f-fast really , as I saw the blonde brat, it is annoying  because I want to burry him and get him rid out of my sight forever. As I go near him my heart tickels it flutter...ew but I ignored his laughs that made my blood boil, I storm out of the great hall, everyone is looking at me as I reached my room. I closed it emidieatly  and slowly slid myself down my door because of the stupid embarrassment  and covered my face .  I finished my tantrum  and jumped on my bed, my face is facing the bed, I then make sure that never in the summer, rain or fall breeze I will  ever wear this dress,I then sit up and still paralyzed  for a few moment but then I just shake everything off and go to the cabinet  to get my pajamas.  I go to the bathtub  and open the shower in it, trying to rinse everything.  I finished taking a  bath, then I put my clothes off, then I stepped out, then lay on my soft marshmallow  like bed.