Night and Day

I can do worst

After the overwhelming feeling that I have I tried to calm myself and just go straight to my room.  Before I even reach my room I encounter him again, I am red from anger and I feel a sensation that I want to punch him and cry because I think it was him who spread the stupid nasty rumour.  I was about to contain everything since he is my student but he called my name as I was about to go down the stairs. Our eyes met my beating heart match the position of his body four feet away from mine.  Draco comes closer and I felt the loud beat of my heart going with the rythm of his shoes steps as if it misses him and I am dissgusted and can't help so my face reciprocates what I felt.  I murmured to the air while trying to contain my tears " you disgust me, you play dirty" but he give me a lazy stare and said " what are you talking about?...ma'am" he said curiously and still feels like he is vomiting the last word like he is disgusted to say it.  My tear fell of and I said " nothing" and I walked pass him , go down stairs . 

As I closed the door of my room I  try to brush of what I felt and said to my self" KAYA MO TO, DI LANG TALAGA MAWAWALAN NG GAGO SA MUNDO" ( "I CAN DO THIS, THE WORLD JUST NEVER RUN OUT OF BASTARDS" )I said as I bite the burger  agressively that the student from first year gave my because it is his birthday.  I pulled out my chair and tune my guitar for tommorow I will be needing it for my class.  Because of  my over whelming feeling I over twist tuning pegs and the thick string created a scar on my face.  it bleeds, I rushed emidiately to the bathroom and let the water slide through my wound, I closed my eyes and let the tears stream from my eyes " why is everything happening to me all at once?!"  I laughed and try not too cry  but I just can't , not caring if the owls cry again or if I am disturbing someone.  They lied, they stabbed, left me alone in the part of my  life where I can't even stand alone on my own feet, people are cruel,  I don't even belong anywhere.  I sniffed and inhale and exhaled heavily even my chest is baring everything that I can never imagine I can carry.  I looked at the mirror and in a heart beat I saw his face again ,  my eyes is already red and my nose hurts because of the time I used sniffing. Our eyes locked and everything fly fort a moment, I feel that there is an escape even just for a second I felt someone cupping my cheecks and I heve never felt so happy.  My tears keep on falling as I keep on staring at him , I have never felt belonged, but I am starting to be crazy as I keep on feeling things that Ican't explain.  The mirror is like the cure in every puzzled emotion that I have When I look at it and see his face I feel better  even I should feel annoyed, repulsed and angered I feel  longed for, called, missed and I want to be annoyed feeling this things but I can't.

I woke up by the sound of the birds chirping outside and I sit up from my bed and look at my pocket watch and see that I just woke up at the right time.  I stand up and quickly  pull my towel from the chair and get my shirt and pants and a cloak, because it was said  by proffesor McGonagall  that I should wear a cloak  to match the cloathing of the environment, so I paired the black velvet cloak with my clothes after I finished taking bath and walked outside of the bathroom and combed my hair, and smiled and pep talked my self i the mirror saying " hindi mo deserve ng kagaguhan sa mundo" ( you don't desred bullshit in this world) and I walked outside of the room and proceed to my first class, first year folks.   I smiled infront of them like nothing happened yesterday, but I still felt the stupid judging gaze of some, I then command them to get their guitars, and for them to check if they  have tuned it.  

"Everyone" I spoke. " before I teach you the chords by heart, you all must know the basics by heart."  I smiled, looking at them.   " You all have to study the parts of the guitar,  First we have the tunning machine, they are  6 for six strings, As your assignment stated for sure you have red hopefully in order for you to tune it, go to the office of the teachers if you can't tune it I'll teach you how to.  Next we have the nut of the guitar, it holds the strings of the guitar, so they will be steady.  Next are the frets of the guitar,  each frets,  the more they are closer to you,  the more the note will raise , how do you do that?  use Capo-" someone interupted my class by knocking.   It was the freind of Harry Potter Hermione Granger.  " Good Morning Ma'am"  she said while smiling. "Can I talk to you for a bit? sorry for interrupting"  I stand outside thinking, then I smiled and nodded and ask permission to my class to go outside.  As I stepped outside she opens her mouth and spoke " Ma'am Draco,  we are so sorry for his behaviour, for his......slander against your-mother"  I looked down for a bit and frowned but smiled at her and said " Don't worry, It's not your fault nor your class responsibility to say sorry for what he might have done, and who knows? it might not be him"  her eyes widened as she spoke with full of emotions "HE DOES NOT THINK OF US AS EQUALS! HE IS A VILE LITTLE COCKROACH!"  She was taken back by what she said and spoke again " I just hate everything about him" I smiled and exhale " we should not hold grudges to anyone Hermione" she nodded full of expression again and spoke " I am just so sorry for what he has done"   I then spoke " Okay lang yun-I mean It's alright " I smiled lightly and then spoke again " I 'll go inside now? you also proceed to your next class okay?" she nod and I get back to my class.

after the the long day of seven class I head to my room and took a bath and after that I brush my hair and put my white dress on, it was the dress that my freind give me at the orphanage, it is a white flowy dress with frowers on it.  After that I let my sleep take me.   

"jade love na love ka ni mommy okay?~" a woman with tears and longing said to her daughter while holding her, but two  wicked looking men with cut on their faces took the woman with strength, and she  cried louder.   Then a man with a silver mask and a dark cloak shouted on the quiet air "avada kedavr-".       

 //  Ma! ma! san niyo dadalhin mommy ko? (mom! mom! stop it! please don't take my mom!)*SIGH! SIGH! *.   "Jade , tama na.... ang sakit na eh ! sobrang sakit eh dito oh ~ "(Jade it hurts!  stop! it hurts! , righ here~ )*pointing at her chest and whisphering to the air while tears cant help but rush.  " Jade tama na ang sakit na dito oh~tama na please~ (jade please, it hurts~)*sigh! sigh! sigh!  *cannot breathe propperly*.   Stands up from her velvet sheets and leaves her room running, not caring if she slammed the door in the middle of the moon being awake at the cold night. 

Running, panting, and  when she finally reached the  top of the  cold, dark tower reapeatedly she keep  saying  " tama na! jade, masakit ~ please!" (Stop please, it huts here!) *slamming her chest while crying and saying tthe word "Mommy.....mommy ang sakit na o~ ang sakit na  dito ~  (mommy, it hurts badly,  right here~)* said to the abbys while pointing at her chest h "mommy ang sakit na, puwede ba sabihin mo diyan na tama na~" (mommy it hurts right here, please ask whereever you are to the big guy there to stop the hurt here?~) *said with teary  eyes longing from someone who can't be there, then............ a voice,

" Shhh, tell me where it hurts? hmm"   with voice full with emphaty "I'm here" said while carefully holding her face and looking at her eyes deeply "I'm here, I will always be " said with his voice whisphered caring and  his  touch like soft silk and cloads, making  the girl stare  longingly look to him, she then said" Draco?~"