Night and Day

FAST

I left the classroom,  With a strange feeling so caged it wants to burst out and fly.  My feet felt wierd as if,  every step I take to move  away , it want's to move on it's own , or loose it's meaning so that I  can fly.  I suddenly get a flashback  when I talked to the mermaid in the lake about the soulmate hokum, ("you will meet the person  that you will love the most. ",  " He is arrorant, proud and not that ....handsome "),  I froze for a moment,  the cold wind having no effects on me at the great ancient hallway.   

After I snapped out to reality, I walked to  where the great hall is to eat because it's already seven in the evening.  I smelled cinnamon, the roasted chicken, the heavenly desserts, the creamy soups ,but suddenly..........  something,  Something happened.......  the familiar scent from orphanage that made my eyes look everywhere  desperetly.   It is -the stew?!  'sinigang'.  The sour soup that contains juicy pork made my mouth water as I just think of devouring it.    I didn't notice that I am already infront of all of the students and sitting next to the professors and I felt something happening in my  eyes, it is warm water wanting, ready to fall and splash,  and suddenly in loud pitch  I screamed and loose control, (" ALING ROSE, NAMIMISS KO NA KAYO!, NABABALIW NA KO DITO! KUNIN NIYO NA AKO, DI KO SILA MAINTINDIHAN! ALING ROSE KUNIN NIYO NA AKO!")   And suddenly, at my award worthy,  speechless vetnting,  I heard nothing ,but silence.   As I opened my eyes everyone is staring at me, with huge confussion plastered on their faces, "shit".  Everyone still remained silent, and the embarassment is lighting the invisible firecracker on my ass,  I WANT TO BURRY MYSELF ALIVE! DANG IT BEING HOME SICK!   But even thought everyting turns perfectly life crashing, I smiled painfully akward,  showing my teeth,    with my eyes that looked like it got infested by a homlesss rat  because of how red there are.  and freed  the word "sorry!".  But everyone remained silent and stare daggers at me, I just sat down slowly while all the eyes are looking, and sadly slurp the sinigang. 

After the stupid homesicking meal I had,  I am ready to walk back at my room, but Professor Dumbledore called me.  I smiled akwardly as I faced him and he spoke "Ms. Deliman, did you like the food we served inspired by your hometown?". My lips curved as I heard the question, though nothing beats the original, I still nodded.  "Glad you appreciated it" He said, it was quiet  for a moment, but The headmaster spoke again,  " well if you have concerns about anything, you can always ask your co- instructors or the other staffs, and mostly don't hesitate to address your worries to me"  he said.

After I and the headmaster Dumbledore chatted,  I immidiately rush to my room, walking fast because I don't want to encounter a single student, so I almost sprint as I can,  not caring about the gaze I am recieving, " Dercho lang jade, wag kang hihinto~"I said  with a nervious smile to myself,  but then Hermione Granger blocked the way, with a smile on her face, I was stumped,  and I feel like I will be fed to an association of  hungry cheetas, as she brought her freinds with her, Potter and Ronald Weasley.  I was cornered, I have no escape to the hungry lions.  While I was bussy smile pretending and sweating because of the social anxiety, she spoke "Miss. Deliman, may I ask? What language have you spoken during the supper?", innocently asking , like she just looks curious and wants to learn, I nerviosly spoke  "uhhhm...uhmmm.....Tagalog, I-t is fro-m th-e country, Philippines!, Miss Grange-".  I saw him again, intensity runs to my vian, straight to my chest, I feel like everything is so intense, I want to run or jump the castle. 

 I ran as fast as I can, bumping the other students crossing, I apologized but I kept on running, MY FEET HURTS SO MUCH! and I am running out of air to breathe but I kept on sprinting ,....... until.I....I reached the dead end,  there is only bricks infront of me, and I don't know where I am,  I turn around, and as I do ,........... he-is there, staring straight at me, to my eyes!  with an intrested expression on his face, I walked pass him but, his words stopped me, "are all mudbloods lunatics?" he said, and I heard the mocking, but I still did not spoke "why, are you running away?", his tone change, it became serious, and it made me turn around to face him.  "No, not all , muggles,not budbloods are lunatic, and DON'T EVER USE THAT WORD INFRONT OF ANYONE! ESPECIALY ME, AND STOP DOING THIS TO ME!" with emotions I spoke, with clear outburst because I am tired of all,  he then spoke " what am I doing to you?" he said with confusion clear on his expression and mostly his eyes, I then spoke with no brake "HINDI KO ALAM! NABABALIW NA AKO, NAWAWALA NA AKO SA ULIRAT KO, ANG BATA BATA KO PA! ANG DAMI DAMI KO PANG PANGARAP! PERO LAHAT TO NANGYAYARI SAKIN..........IKAW!!.....NAKAKARINDE KA .....NAKIKITA KITA KAHIT SAAN AKO MAGPUNTA !  TA-TAPOS TAPOS, DI KO MAINTINDIHAN KUNG ANONG SINASABI NG KATAWAN KO, KAPAG MALAPIT KA , NANDIYAN KA,  ANG BILIS NG TIBOK-  DI-DITO! PAPATAYIN MO ATA AKO EH!  EH-E-EH! DI NAMAN KITA KILALA.....SINO KA BA?!!............ NGAYON LANG AKO NAGKAGANITO, ANG GULO GULO NA NGA TAPOS DUMATING KA PA! HA?, SINO KA BA DRACO MALFOY!? SINO KA BA!".  I am out of air to breathe.  After I shouted,  I almost collapse ,but, I managed to breathe in and out loudly, while having a panic attack ,  I stare in to his eyes bravely, because I am tired of everything.  As I stare, there is confussion but......there is s-spark in it! that I have never seen before,  as if he understands everything that I have said, every breathe, every word, every sound and even every..... beat.