Almost Famous (Machine Gun Kelly)

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I sat under the covers in the hotel room. Pleading that Chris would stop texting me. I didn't know what else to say to him other than I'm sorry, like I always have done in the past. Chris was always a jealous man. Even when we first met. I had a lot of friends from high school stop talking to me because of Chris, and I wasn't sure why at first until I finally seen it with my own eyes. He sabotages everything that I've ever had with people, possessions, and myself. When Ava was born, I thought he would change but he just got mean and I wasn't sure what I was gonna do once Ava turned one, but now I see that it was the best decision to kick him out of my life.

"Are you okay"?

I looked over in the lightly dimmed room at Colson who sat in the chair across the bed.

"Define okay"? I sighed.

He nodded like he agreed and sat up. When he walked over to the bed, he knelt down so we were face to face.

"Wanna talk about it"? He asked.

I shook my head. He has enough problems to handle right now. The baby daddy issue doesn't even come close to that.

"You know I care about you, right"? He whispered.

When he grabbed my hand to hold it I felt taken back, but I knew this was how he showed comfort.

"I know you do". I whispered. "But this is to much for you to be dealing with, on top of what you have going on". I sighed.

He nodded again and stood up, gesturing for me to move over. I chuckled and moved over as he climbed into bed, pulling the covers up over him and I.

"Then let's talk. Maybe it can help the both of us".

I gave him a smile, feeling that love for him again. I may not be with him but any girl that will be, will be very lucky.

"Are you upset because of Chris"? He asked.

I nodded, looking down at his double x chain.

"He thinks I took this job to party. He's mad I left him with his own daughter. Its nothing new but some words hit deep this time".

Colson nodded again and moved closer. When his arm wrapped around my waist I took the opportunity to put my face against his chest.

"You're allowed to be you". He whispered.

I pulled my face away from his chest and looked into his eyes this time.

"You're allowed to grow up. When you did, you became an amazing mother. Make sure Ava sees that everyday. Fuck what Chris says. You're perfect". He whispered.

I gave him a smile only for me to get goosebumps when he placed his lips on mine. It was quick so when he pulled away I felt shocked. I traced my hand up his arm to the back of his neck and pulled him back in for my benefit. I wasn't sure if I would get this chance again with him. When his lips kissed me back I knew I was in for it. He deepened the kiss, pushing himself to hover over me. I wrapped my legs around his body as he kissed me over and over.

But i stopped kissing back.

When he pulled away quickly I knew it was to good to be true.

"Dont do that. Don't look away". He spoke.

I turned to look at the side table, wishing I could shut my head off but I can't.

"Em"? He whispered.

"I cant. Not like this". I said, lightly pushing him off of me so I can sit up.

He sat down next to me and pulled his knees to his chest.

"We have some crappy ex's". He sighed, causing me to giggle.

"That's not it. It's just you". I said, finally looking at him.

His face showed confusion and a little bit of hurt but it's not what I meant.

"What I mean is, it's you. It's always been you. I stopped because I couldn't believe it".

He kept quiet as I spoke, listening to every detail that left my lips.

"I'm sorry"? He questioned and I lightly pushed him, causing a smile to spread across his face.

But it got serious quick.

"The night you left. I wasn't sure if I'd ever see you again. I waited around like some lost puppy, hoping you would climb back through the window and tell me its okay. I was too young to know what love was, or even having a crush on someone who was to good for me". I sighed.

He gave me a smile and grabbed my hand, pressing his lips against my hand.

"That's funny, because I thought the same with you". He whispered.

I laid my head on his shoulder as he kissed the top of my head.

"Will this ever work out"? He asks, wrapping his arm around me.

"I don't know. I want it to".

He nodded, then grabbed my face, turning my face to him. When he let his lips connect to mine again I smiled.

"If you can make it work, so can i". He spoke into the kiss.

My mind was all over the place. Putting me in imagination land of what if's. Would it work? How would it work? I wasn't paying attention, but noticed I was back under Colson as his lips kissed down my neck. I giggled, moving my head to side so he had more access.

"I don't think we can tell anybody about this". I moaned lightly.

He pulled away and gave me a smirk.

"I hope you know that sneaking around is ten times hotter". He smirked.

I nodded. "I know".

He put his lips back on mine again, putting his hand between us, between my legs. He wasn't going far, he just liked the idea of a good tease.

"Get some sleep. We have a show tomorrow". He hummed and pecked the tip of my nose before he got up.

Once he walked out of the hotel room I laid there hot and bothered from my secret love affair.