Thoughts

Just two girls #1

                            ~Jocey~

This was my first party ever. I have never been at one because most of my friends were younger than me and not quiete ready for partying. I didnt mind it most of the time but sometimes the age gap did matter. This time for example. I had never been to a party simply because my friends were too young and i didnt drink alcohol. Its sad how much of a difference it makes. Just beacause of the fact that I dont drink, people always assume that i dont like to have fun or wanr to party. Long story short i was almost 17 and at my first party ever because a friend from my grade school invited me. We hadnt seen each other in a long time and she didnt want to go alone so it was the perfect opportunity to catch up a little. We were in the middle of a conversation about school, walking down the hallway of the huge mansion(i had no idea who even lived here and how much money they must have) when we came across a room where qe heard music playing. Music, a little different from what was played in the living room. Not the usual party stuff that just has the same beat every time. But hard rock music. I imediatly stopped and listened my friend staring at me and the half opened door. I started nodding my head to the music. My friend let out a sigh:" you still vibing to that ear busting shit?" Of course i was. Cant forget the songs of my chilhood." Yea. Its definetly better than boring pop songs." "If you say so. I wont go in there tho, my ears might fall off if we can hear the music that loud just in the corridor. You can go tho, if you want. I saw some of my friend earlier in the living room." "You sure it will be okay?"  She was the kind of person who didnt like beeing alone in crowded places. But if she saw her friends it should be allright. " yea, i'd be more worried going into that room. Lets meet at 1 o clock by the old gramophone in the livibg room okay? My mom will pick us up then." I smiled" okay, see you then" we said goodbye and hugged, and then i could finally listen to the music. Right now was an older rock song playing and i laid my head back, letting the beat vibrate in my eardrums. I had no idea who would be in that room or what would await me. Maybe just some junkiees doing drugs, who knows. But i just felt so drawn to the beat that i just pushed the door open. And before my eyes lay a practice room. The speakers were on full blast and i could feel the walls vibrate. There were drums, guitars, a keyboard and many more instruments. The room was bigger than i thought and the only ligjt came fron the moon shinibg throu the window. And in the middle of all lf it only shimmering in the moonshine sat a girl. Playing the bass. Her finger were fast, her eyes sorealy focused on the strings. Her hair was dyed black and she wore some ripped up jeans with thight under it. Her top was of a dark red colour with black ornaments on it and she had glasses. It was an amazing sight. Absolutely beautiful. All i could do was stand there and watch. She didnt notice me staring, too concentrated on hitting every single note.
As magical as this moment was as soon it was over.
The music stopped and so did her fingers. I could see she was breathing heavy and she stard at her bass for anpther few seconds, then she raised her head. I stared into her eyes of soft dark brown with a hin of a green spark in them, her brows melted softly into the contoures of her nose. She was just beautiful. But what took me by storm was the spark in her eyes. The craving feeling for adventure and risk, i felt like i was staring into the eyes of an animal for a split second.
Then she got up packed her stjff and left. A new song blasting in the background. Something from metallica i think.
I just stood there and watched her leave. Then i stood there for another real long time. Too long. I had fallen half asleep staring at the wall for too long, trying to process what jad just happened. Playing the memory all over in my head like a video stuck on repeat. Not able to move ore think about anything else. Just me in that room with the loud music and songs playing that didnt get throu to me. I only woke up from that state because a couple opened the door seemingly searching for a spot to get some alone time and do things id rather not witness. So i left. Searched for my friend and went home by foot. It took me over an hour to get home. The walk cleared my head a little and now i realized gow stupid all that was. Like i did not just fall in love with a random GRIL at a random party. Just how did all of this happen in one night. Processing this would take me a long time. And i cursed myself even more for not running after her and leaving. Maybe she would have been still at the party. But maybe it was for the better. It seemed like i had disturbed her in what she was doing and she obviously didnt search for my company, juding by the hasty way that she left. But there was no use. I would probably never see her again. And there wouldnt have been any chance for something to happen. I didnt want that kind of realtipnship anyways, not right now i had enough going on already and i wasnt quiete ready for something that intimate. But at the same time my thoughts started to wander places i would have never thought they could go. Doing things that made me blush and breathe heavily. I wanst sure if i wanted it but it sure did invite itself into my head. Long story short: i was head over heels over that girl. And i needed to see her again.