True Love

chapter 30

TW: mentions of rape

I cried in Austin's arms and he patted my head and played with my hair. He said "when you're ready baby, when you're ready." I wiped my tears and I said "well I don't know where to start."

He said "well first of all who were you on the phone with?" I said "my old friend Marissa, her dad was my gymnastics coach." He said "okay and what was his name?" I said "Paul." He said "ok so you and Marissa are not friends why now?" I said "well what bothered her most was because I slept with her ex, and second was because of her dad, coach Paul."

He said "okay, do you mind telling me about how you got raped?" I said "no I'll tell you, you should know." I said "I was about 14 years old and I was alone in the gym with coach paul on a friday night. I thought I was alone in the changing room until I took off my leotard and then..." He said "you don't have to tell me, it's okay." I said "no no I will, just give me a minute."

I took a deep breath and slowed my crying. I said "I was getting in the shower and when I opened the curtain he was standing there naked in the shower, and then...yeah." He knew what yeah meant.

He said "I'm so sorry Y/N, did you say anything." I said "no, because at the time my mom just had a feeling gymnastics wasn't good for me anymore since she would wonder why I was so anxious about going, it was when I started to become anorexic because of how sad and depressed I was. I was also friends with Marissa and me being famous child star, I was considerate . I didn't want people to hear about her dad and then she was separated from him, I cared about her, and obviously she doesn't care about me, and when I tell her her own father raped me she says 'that's why you were such a whore', like are you fuckin kidding me? I did little things to get back at her dad by pissing off his daughter, and every time I would see him I would be extremely rude to him even in front of my parents and they never really got mad at me, they just thought maybe I was hormonal or something I have no idea, but they never really picked up on how heavy the tension was. They also avoided him since I quit the team."

I sighed and Austin said "wow Y/N i'm so sorry, I'll beat the shit out of him next time I see him." I laughed and said "I'll join." He kissed me and he said "you lost your virginity to Rob, not that monster, when you did it with Rob, did it hurt?" I said "yeah it still did hurt, because I hadn't had any sex after the incident . and yes, just because I got raped doesn't mean that's how I lost my virginity, thank you for understanding that."

He kissed me and said "you're safe with me, no body is going to hurt you, do you understand?" I nodded my head and he said "you're mine Y/N, mine."

I smiled and said "I love you Austin, please don't leave me. I don't know what else she might release of me and my other exes because I wouldn't be surprised if she got those too, but those are from the past and we are in the present." He said "You know I could never leave you baby."

I smiled and said "thank you." He said "why don't you drink some alcohol and relax." I said "sounds good." I pulled out some 818 from my nightstand and poured it in a cup by my bed.

Austin and I took a shot and soon we were a little tipsy but relaxed and my brain was off the subject of what we were taking about. Austin played with my hair and he went back on his phone. He said "I know these sex tapes piss you off but you look good, sexy just wow."

I smiled and said "stop." He said "i'll be back I'm gonna shower." I said "oh ok."

He got some of his pajamas and walked into the bathroom. Huh that was weird how he just took off like that. I heard the shower running but also a weird sound. I had heard it before but where?

I moved closer to the door and realized it was Austin groaning and the water moving funny. I raised an eyebrow and I recognized it from my brother. I always just knew when I heard that noise he tended to be in the shower longer and when I got older I put the pieces together.

I smiled and decided I had to take a peak. I slowly slid the door open a crack. I knew it, he was jerking off in the shower. I slammed open the door and said "busted!" He stoped and his cheeks blushed. He said "how did you know?"

I said "I have two older brothers and amazing hearing." I saw he was still hard I said "you can continue." I closed the door and shook my head and laughed. He so cute.

I really wasn't in the mood to do anything sexual and i'm sure austin could tell and i'm secretly happy the sex tape turned him on LOL.  so I just changed into pajamas and did my skin care routine when Austin was done 'doing his thing'.

I was finishing up as Austin was too. He said "um Y/N weird question." I said "say it."

He said "why are you always clean you know down there?" I said "well yeah of course, do you expect for me to smell." He laughed and said "not like that I mean how are you always shaved." I said "ohhhh well I don't shave I get it waxed. I have to model swimsuits mainly all year but around this time it dies down."

He said "I know this sounds weird, but do you think you could not shave for me?" I said "oh um why?" He said "I want to see you unshaved, please, you see me unshaved all the time." I said "it's different you're a man." He said "no, for me please."

I said "ok fine, but i'm not letting mine get like yours." He laughed and said "hey, it was only bad that one time." I laughed and said "ok ok, my bad."

We got our pajamas on and got in bed. He held me close to him. He said "good night baby, you're safe with me, I will always protect you and keep you out of harms way the best I can, please always talk to me okay? I love you." I said "thanks Austin. I will and I love you too."