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on his way home, he made a quick stop at a coffee shop to buy a cheesecake.

It could be a good gesture after their argument, and minho knew jisung would enjoy  it.

he then rushed home. his heart was beating fast as he opened the door.
"I'm home!" minho called, but there was no answer.

minho went further into the house, and started panicking a little when he didn't see jisung in the living room, nor the kitchen.
soonie, doongie and dori were peacefully laying on the couch.

Minho didn't loose hope.
he could be in his room, right?

minho quickly went to the door and knocked.
"jisung, are you here?"

no answer.

"are you sleeping?"

no answer.

"I'm going inside, okay?"
minho opened the door, just to be met with a empty room. no sight of jisung.

minho started panicking a little at this point.

it's okay, the house is big, he will be somewhere.

but he wasn't.
minho went three times over his own house, but there was no sight of jisung.

minho took out his phone and called jisung.
no answer.

minho started full time panicking, calling everyone that knew jisung and he had their number.

no one knew where jisung was.

minho took his car keys and started driving around the neighborhood.

"he isn't home?!" hyunjin asked ( more like yelled ) trough the phone.
minho was calling him as he was driving, watching his surroundings, looking for his love.

"no, he wasn't there when I returned. his things are still in my house, so he didn't move or something.
gosh, I'm so worried hyunjin."

"it's okay, we will find him. me and felix are going for my car, we will help you look, he could he anywhere."

"thank you hyunjin."

"of course, we will call you if we find him."

hyunjin said and hanged up.

minho continued driving, and when he found a good parking spot in the center, he parked his car and got out. he was going from window to window, looking for a familiar face, but with no luck.

he called hyunjin.
"did you find something?"

"nope, but we're still looking. we're near the gimbap restaurant we're sometimes going after practice, we will look around a little more."

"okay, is Felix with you?"

"yeah, he's freaking out. but to be honest, I'm worried too."

"yeah, but let's not loose hope. fighting."

"good luck."
hyunjin said and hanged up.

minho sighed.
he remembered the doctors words.

like I told you before, when a bipolar patient starts taking their medication after they didn't take it for a while, a lot of depressing thoughts come. when the patients are left alone only with their thoughts, it's really bad. a lot of of bipolar patients commit suicide in this stage, because the change in the world around them is huge. one minute, they're happy, and suddenly, all of these ugly thoughts and feelings appear, and some of them can't handle that change. mr. han is no exception, we're sure he's also going through rough time now.

minho sighed.
he really hoped that jisung didn't do something to himself.
no, he had to stay positive.
he's okay, he will find him.
he needs to believe that.

minho was running around the block, and when he didn't find him, he had this bad feeling in his stomach.

I mean, Jisung couldn't leave that far, he didn't have a car, and he wasn't strong enough physically and mentally to do some long walks. he needed to be somewhere here.

he then tried to remember every place that han could be in right now.....
gosh, he's so stupid.
he didn't even look in hans house.

minho quickly ran to Hans house, but when he arrived, the lights weren't on and the door was locked, which means that jisung did that on purpose so that no one could find him, or...he just wasn't here.

"jisung, where the hell are you?"
minho cursed worriedly under his breath and went back to his car. he took out his phone, trying to call jisung once again, with no luck.

god, this was such a bad situation.
minho was worried sick.

hyunjin texted him a few minutes ago, telling him that they still had no luck.
this looked hopeless.
but minho wasn't giving up.
he would find jisung, even if he would have to look for him the entire night.

he started thinking more.
if I was han, where would I go?

he was thinking, until he remembered a park that han really liked to go to. it was a park where minho and jisung put a lock on their favorite bench.
the place always meant a lot to jisung, and if minho was in his place, he would definitely go there.

minho started running towards the park. there wasn't any time to get the car.
by this time, he was thirsty and hungry, really exhausted too, so after a while of running, he just couldn't keep going anymore and started walking towards the park.

it took him a little bit longer than if he ran, but he eventually got there. he looked around.

"jisung!" minho yelled, trying to find the younger.

"JISUNG!"

minho stopped when he saw their bench. he slowly made his way to it, and looked at it.
the lock was still there, hanging.
neither one of them thought about removing it three years ago, and it was still there, symbolizing the never ending love they had for each other.
well, the never ending love minho had for jisung.

that wasn't exactly true. jisung loved minho just as minho loved jisung, but Minho didn't know that. to be honest, han didn't either. when he came to his senses the day he woke up, he was confused about his feelings, not sure what was real, or what was fake. so when minho asked jisung if he loved him, he didn't know how to answer.
a painful moment for both of them, that could have been avoided.

minho looked around, not seeing jisung anywhere.

just as he was about to leave, he noticed a siluetee, standing on the edge of a bridge. when minho looked closer, he saw a tiny figure with a small waist, looking down on the water.

han.

he found him.
but....he was ready to jump.