pearl {hsau}

you could start a cult.

-christmas came early.

song; you could start a cult // niall horan ft lizzy mcapline 

when you see ** play the song

margot xx

Today is Christmas.

For the first time in years I am excited for the holiday.

When Harry left he took everything including the joy of the holidays. As the years went on and the less home I felt the more I dreaded the holidays. To the point where I just sat in my house shoving my face with candy while I watched Christmas movies.

But today, I am excited about it.

I am going over to Anne's today for Christmas for the first time in four years. Normally I just get everyone gifts and drop it off Christmas morning before I hide myself in my house cuddled up with my cat in front of the tv.

I guess Harry coming back home changes a girl.

After Harry left my house yesterday morning, I ended up running out and getting him a gift because it would have been rude. Especially when I forgave him and we have made it past that speed bump. Luckily for me, I own a record store and I know what we order and get in. I also am the one that goes through the vinyl records people bring in used.

Just last week some guy brought in the one vinyl Harry has always been looking for since I could remember. A first pressing of the White Album by The Beatles. It's the rarest Beatles records, that anyone collecting hunts for. The Beatles are one of Harry's favorite bands and I held it in the back because of how rare it is.

When I get rarities they stay in the back until someone I know who is an avid collector comes in asking to see them.

Merry Christmas H.

I ended up going to the grocery and getting him a few of his favorites to make him a small basket. I love making gift baskets. I make Anne, Gemma, and Sophia one every year. In my opinion that is more special than a gift someone got off of Amazon.

I fill it with all of their favorites along with things for relaxation. Harry is a man and I don't know if he knows how to relax with his career. Anything from their favorite candy or chips to their favorite wine. I even throw in a few gift cards for their favorite stores or restaurants. Something thoughtful and meaningful.

It's 12 pm and Anne told me to come over around 3 so I can help her finish dinner in time for Gemma and her boyfriend, Sophia and Shephard's sister Grace to arrive around 5.

I have lots of things to finish in three hours. I need to get ready, I need to finish the cake I made every year, and I need to visit the graveyard to put flowers on the graves. The good thing is I am almost ready and all I have to do is ice and decorate the cake.

If there's one thing that my mom taught me, it's how to bake. My mom would make it every year for Christmas and I would help her. So as the years went on Nana would help me make it until I was able to safely make it myself. But, I haven't made it in four years and I am worried I am a bit rusty making it. So I hope it turns out.

A lemon raspberry layered cake with lemon buttercream frosting might not be a flavor normal to the holiday season but it's a tradition and everyone always loved it . Or they just have really good poker faces.

"Stanley I need to get you in your Christmas outfit sir" I say walking into my room seeing him on his back sleeping away. I kneel on my bed and it disturbs him and I giggle at his resting grumpy face. "Come on sweet boy you have to be ready for when momma gets back from visiting Nana." I pick him up and walk to the bathroom. Turning on the light, and sitting him on the counter I open the drawer and grab his outfit. After I shut the drawer I see Stan laying in the sink.