★ Paranoia

Chapter 2

"I'm so proud of you JJ, you know that right?"

They were both in bed now, with JJ on top while Mikey was underneath him, stroking his face. They would've already been having sex by now, but Mikey had wanted to express his feelings on the situation just once before they did.

"That's what I've praying for more than anything else." JJ whispered, his eyes locking with Mikey's, staring so deeply that Mikey couldn't help but blush in anticipation. "I never stopped thinking of you, Mikey. You were the only thing on my mind the entire time. Knowing you still care has made my world. I love you..."

JJ's hands curved around Mikey's sides as he leaned down, leaving a trail of wet kisses down the hybrid's neck. Mikey couldn't help but move around and moan softly, his stomach doing flips as he relished finally being able to have him here again after what felt like an eternity of isolation. Yet even then, he couldn't help but feel a wave of embarrassment wash over him too. JJ noticed it by looking into his eyes again after he pulled his lips from his neck, a series of soft, exhausted breaths leaving him.

"Sweetheart?" He prompted.

"You don't mind, do you?" Mikey asked nervously, feeling jittery as JJ's hands rested on his hips and waist, which had gotten a little bit wider since JJ had last seen him. "I know you probably noticed it by now. I'm sorry- I just couldn't help it. I was so stressed and lonely while you were away, and eating took my mind off it. I couldn't stop myself a lot of the time."

"As long as you're happy with how you look, then I don't care. I love you," JJ reminded him again, his breath tickling Mikey's ear. He started to kiss him some more as Mikey sighed in relief. "And nothing will change that."

"Normally I wouldn't care, but it's the circumstances that make me ashamed of it. I'm where I'm at now because of bad habits."

"Then we'll get you somewhere to where you'll be able to feel as handsome and beautiful as you look. But for now, don't be ashamed. I love you so much."

Mikey was very flustered, and almost overstimulated at the rise in attention he'd been receiving since JJ had been back. He decided that nothing was better than this moment; finally having everything he wanted again after suffering for so long. One of Mikey's hands slipped under JJ's shirt, lazily pulling it forward, while his other hand started to move down his leg. JJ let out a soft "mhmn" in response, but something started to change in his gaze once Mikey reached low enough to his inner thighs, and he abruptly jerked back.

"Huh?" Mikey removed his hands and looked to JJ, finding a sudden stress in his eyes. "Did I do something wrong?"

"No, no, you didn't." JJ clarified instantly, but he sounded out of breath now, as if his throat was too tight to speak. Hardly able to keep up with how quickly he'd shifted, Mikey spent some time trying to process what happened while JJ crossed his legs together, trying to retrain his thoughts. "I'm sorry. I'm just..."

"Are you sore?" Mikey guessed. "Or are you not feeling as up to it as you thought? It's okay, JJ. You can take as long as you need."

"No. I'm..."

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"I-I'm..."

"Hey." Mikey cautiously cupped JJ's face, starting to get worried, and JJ turned sideways to see him, seeing as he'd previously been rolled over with his sweating hands clutching his clothes. "It's really okay, JJ. I know it's hard to adjust to your surroundings after all this time, so maybe you just need time to take everything in. We don't have to do this today, or any time until you feel like it. I'm sorry if I made you feel pressured earlier."

"I trust you." JJ said, almost as if he was reciting this to an inner conscience to remind himself of it instead of talking to Mikey. "I... trust you. You didn't do anything wrong, Mikey, I promise. I just had a... vision, all of a sudden. It had nothing to do with you. You've always been so gentle and loving; don't think you made any mistakes."