Opposites

Bite me

A girl who does what she wants and says what she wants, is dangerous.

How can Azriel say that I'm not loyal he actually said that I'm dog, or something like that. Man I never got so angry in my life.
Am I supposed to do what now?

Im laying in bed that's not even mine in Night court. Rhysand didn't say a word to me when he winnowed us to palace, I went straight to my room not waiting for everyone.
How long am I gonna be here?
What will my place be here?

„ Naerys?" I looked up to a door seeing Feyre standing there.
„ Come in" I said quietly, and she closed door behind her and sat on edge of my bed smile spread across her face.

„ Do you like it here?"
„ Sure" I answered simply.
I liked it here it was something different from life I have been living, more luxurious and beautiful.
Maybe it was that I was Illyrian and we are more like night creatures but here were nights more beautiful.
The stars and everything in here were just so different and I missed my home.
„ Are you upset because I'm here or that you killed that man?"
I shifted my gaze to her face.
„ Im not upset." I simply said.
I wasn't upset I was just thinking.
„ Rhysand sent me here to check up on you. You are laying here for two days straight, you should eat something or come with me to fly or on walk.
Whatever you want, Naerys just don't shut yourself out."
I sat on bed and turned to face her.
„ I'm not upset and Im doing good.
I don't want to go for a fly or walk."
„ Are you trying to convince yourself or what?" I rolled my eyes.
„ Look I respect you, Feyre. I really do. But with all respect in me towards you, leave me alone and don't try to act nice to me just because you feel sorry for some shit I don't know about."
She blinked few times but smiled.
„ I see me in yourself, Naerys. I'm not feeling sorry for you I just don't want you to fall in some goddamn shit I was going trough."
„ Your shit was different. Although I should take it as compliment that you see yourself in me."
„ Come on, get dressed take a walk with me, please?"
She is High Lady, I respect her but I was too tired to go somewhere or eat, I haven't eaten in two days I just laid in my bed. Memories rushing trough my head, most of them from war. I don't remember much from it. Maybe I was knocked out from tge start but Azriel said Rhysand saw something, me.
I don't know what was part of war and what wasn't, my mind is circling around everything but I can't see a damn shit.
What happened there?

„ Calm down, Naerys." Feyre said .
„ Please leave me alone. I don't want to do something to you."
she sighed softly and grabbed my hand.
„ Please, Naerys belive me. I know what you are going trough. Trust me and take a walk with me." I saw little stars in her eyes.
„ If you would want to go back okay just come out of this room." I loudly sighed and nodded. I hated that she could calm peroson or make them do something, I didn't want to go and I'm pretty sure she knows but she doesn't spoke to me when I get dressed.
I wear tight black jeans that make my ass bigger than it actually is but fuck it, I put on a white blouse and I put holder around my tight and grab one of my daggers and put it in, I turn ro Feyre she smiles and walks out of room I followed her with sight.

„ So what's your brother name? Rhysand told me you have younger brother."
„ Do we need to talk?"
„ I'm trying to get to know you, so it would be a good thing if you answered."
I didn't say anything to that sentence when I spoke „ His name is Simon."
„ And you always lived in that camp?"
„ Yes, since I was born. It's thought there. Everyone will try to kill you for some shit. Once I was just healing, I don't have powers of healer but I know some things, so I helped him. His stomach needed to heal he got there a small pieces of wood some jerk in training stabbed him, so when I tried to took them out he almost choked me to dead. Because I had wings and because-"
„ And because you were a woman with wings?" I nodded.
„ I thought they are cutting wings off of woman's in that camp..."
„ They do but I always hid, somewhere in mountains or I just stayed home."
„ Oh, so you know ways in mountains?"
„ I practically grew up in mountains so, yes I know most ways, trails and places there."  we walked through big garden everything was white. Snow falling down on every inch of my white hair and it was freezing but I didn't give a damn.
„ Do you want to join today to our dinner?" Feyre asked and I looked at her.
„ No."
„ Naerys you shouldn't shut yourself out."
„ I'm not shutting myself out I just don't like people. And everything that is similar with group of people."
„ Oh, I know what's going on!" She giggled and I stopped she stands before me and looks into my eyes.
„ You don't like Azriel and Cassian am I right?"
„ I don't like them because I don't need to like them. Cassian is like puppy doing everything Rhysand says and for the record Azriel does too. And Azriel said that shit with dog. He literally compared me to a dog! And I'm pissed because his shadows are following me everywhere."
She looked suprised that I said something about them but she laughed.
„ Cassian is a General and Commander of Night court you can't expect him to act any different when he listens to commands of Rhysand. But when you get to know him he is good man, he acts like child but he is good. And Azriel is just ehm, Azriel. I don't know he doesn't speak to much and when he does it's rather insult or some good plan. He is man of secrets. But he is good man. If he insulted you it's probably because he doesn't know you and he hates when he doesn't know things."