𝙈𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙆𝙞𝙣𝙜

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟕

I love her

— HER POV—

I turn around „Well hello Carmen." I say in a sarcastically nice tone „I'm sorry if you haven't seen or heard it but I had a conversation with your lovely son till you stomped in and interrupted us. It would be very nice of you if you'd get the fuck out of here and leave us alone cause I'm sure there's no one wanting to talk to you or seeing you. CIAO" I don't think anyone knows I hate her, right?

She was outraged and ran outside while cursing in Italian. I look at the others and then at Charles. "What" They're looking at me surprised. Charles talked first "No one ever talked to my mother like that. But- It was true what you said." Lando was confused "But... I thought she was your mother? Why wouldn't you want to see your mother?" "Long story-" I interrupted Charles "Yeah right you wanted to tell me and the others the whole story right?" He sighs. "My mother never wanted me to live my life the way I wanted. And If I did, like... being with Milly-"  Lando interrupted him „WAIT you two were together??"  He shot Lando a warning gaze and continued. „she punished me or threatened me to stop doing the things I love like driving... If I wouldn't do things the way she wanted, I had to endure the consequences... I hadn't had the best childhood, what also the reason for my actions was. It was always my mother. I'm so sorry if I hurt you some time... especially you, Emily."

— HIS POV —
-4 years ago at the campfire-

I have to tell her. I do not hate her. I like her... No I... I love her. But my mother can't know. If she would-  "you did what?"  "The fire... It was me."  "WHAT? charles don't lie."  "I'm not lying, Milly" Her voice broke "Why"  "I can't tell you..."  "WHY"  A tear tried to escape but I held it in. I'm not gonna cry in front of her. I know I might've fucked up my chances with her but... It's better she knows the truth. "Why have you set it on fire?... my parents almost fucking DIED"  "I know but-"  "WHY would you want to KILL them"  "I would've never wanted that to happen, please let me explain-"  "NO. I never want to be with you again." 

If she only knew why I set that house on fire...

- now -

"Oh I'm so sorry Charlie... For all those years... But still... you did those things. You're still an asshole" I turned my head away. I know I fucked up... but I had no chance- "But you're my asshole" She grabbed my face and kissed me. It was very surprising and not a long kiss... but it meant more than I could describe. She smiled at me, but I looked at Arthur, Charles and Lando. What she doesn't know, but they do, is- "Charlie" I look at her. My face still in an unreadable expression. "Why are you looking like that" "What? Hot? Oh thanks" „I thought we were past that..."

I can't tell her... I do not hate her. I like her... I lo- no what am I even saying. I can't I'm not...allowed. It hurts.

She went outside and Lando went after her. Arthur came to me "I understand this whole thing with your mother, but I don't understand why you're doing this to her." "I- I know, I could do all this behind my mothers back but- It's not the matter if she finds out, but when. She has eyes and ears everywhere. I can't live properly without her spying on me." "This is shit" "I'm shit..." "No you're not"

I am.

— HER POV —

I ran out of the room. Again. Because of Charles. Again. I have to cry because of him. Again. What is this. A shitty broken matrix where I go through one déjà vu after another? I hate my life.

Lando came to comfort me and later Arthur and Charles came to us and we went back to the track. I go to my family again and we go to eat dinner in a fancy restaurant with the Leclercs. I went to the toilet and as I walked up the stairs after, someone bumped into me and I almost fell down the stairs but someone else catches me. I look at the person, to thank them but- of course it was Charles. He looks me deeply in the eyes "Why aren't you at the hospital you were deeply injured" he isn't answering but when I wanted to go, he tightened his grip on my arms. "Let me go" "no" he looks at my outfit. I wear a tight, short black glitter dress with the Ferrari bomber jacket. His jade eyes shimmering in the dim light while he was staring at me. "you look pretty" why is he so nice... "Oh and I like your jacket" It was... His...I free myself from his grip and put off the jacket, give it to him „here have it back" and walk away before he could've said a word.

After a few hours me and Arthur went outside to talk. We talked about Charles and how he maybe doesn't like me anymore. He comforted me. "I talked to him. I don't think it's smart to run after him... he... he has..." "what" "a girlfriend" "WHAT" Speaking of the devil, Charles walked out of the door. He came straight to us, gave me the jacket and went away. I would love to burn it down right now but it's cold so I put it on. "Oh Ari I'm so grateful that you're always by my side" "Of course" I don't know if it was the wine I drank or my true self, but I kissed him. Right on the lips. He looks at me after it, a bit confused, but I think I wasn't the only one who drank something cause he kissed me back.

"I'll be right back" he went inside and I went on my phone till suddenly a shadow appeared in front of me but I was too drunk to use self defense. The shadow appeared to be a man and he pinned me against the wall. I couldn't see his face cause it was too dark, but he kissed me. What is going on here? Oh. I know only one person, who kisses like that.

"Why are you here?" he puts his finger on my mouth "smetti di parlare"
(-> stop talking)

End of Chapter 17

Authors Note:

I don't know what to say lol

Hope you have a good day
See you next time, ciaoo
ti amo❤️