LASSITUDE

18

17.12.23.

my heart feels like it will actually break
and my stomach feels awful
i hate that i let this happen to me.

i hate it so much.
i want to cry and scream but what i should actually do is move on

i promised it to myself.

i went to the cinema with a friend and it was so much fun.
it was my first time at such type of cinema because i usually go at the
same place but this new one was really cool and different.

and we watched a very long movie that was almost three hours!!!

very long and at times boring but it wasn't bad.
then we spend a lot of time in a café.
i really could forget everything at this one day.
it was a good day.

i got home really late ,though, because google maps kind of screwed me over, lol.
when i came home i played with my cat and then watched some netflix.

oh my god.

netflix.

oh dear god.

i don't want to say why i am reacting like this just in case my irl friends find this account somehow and connect this story with me.

but i just had an awful realisation.

oh god.

anyway.

let's ignore the bad feelings.
i will go search for "snap out of it" lyrics by artic monkeys just so this chapter can look better.

....

What's been happenin' in your world?
What have you been up to?
I heard that you fell in love or near enough
I gotta tell you the truth, yeah...

I wanna grab both your shoulders and shake, baby...
Snap out of it (snap out of it)
I get the feelin' I left it too late, but baby
Snap out of it (snap out of it)
If that watch don't continue to swing
Or the fat lady fancies havin' a sing
I'll be here waitin' ever so patiently
For you to snap out of it

Forever isn't for everyone
Is forever for you?
It sounds like settlin' down or givin' up
But it don't sound much like you, girl

....

Under a spell you're hypnotized (ooh)
Darlin', how could you be so blind?

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