20/10/24should i have stayed?
nothing would have changed
i know
i should knowbut here
i don't know
everything is the same everywhere
no matter how far i go
or how i behave
it's always the samefeeling like im rotting inside
seriously exploring every side of whatever this ishow does one stay sane
my mind goes wherever these days
will i ever know someone and will someone ever know me in a way it feels right?i think i will always explore the different path in my mind
it's good to go out of your comfort zone
the risk isn't worth it
should i be greedy about it?
i don't know
i already am
it stays the same
nothing changes
i am disappointed
but relieved
but mostly disappointedand the relief isn't permanent
or full
or complete
or meaningfulhow can i go at things with low expectations and still get disappointed it's not funny
there is no meaning