I'm Not A Fan // Nessa Barrett

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Knock knock

I sat up quickly watching the door open slowly. Nessa stood at the door in a messy with blue boxers that were rolled up at the waist making the them sit higher on her thighs with a white tank top that rested right above her belly button

"Hey" I spoke adjusting myself in bed "is everything ok?"

She nodded with a small pout "can I join you?...I can't sleep" she spoke with sadness laced in her voice

"Yeah of course" I scooted over in bed giving her room. I watched as she closed the door behind her and made her way over

I climbed under the covers and held the blanket up for her to do the same. She climbed up and laid down facing me

I placed the blanket over her dropping my arm in between us "everything ok?" I asked receiving a nod from the girl

"Tour is really soon" she spoke

"Do you not want it to be?" I asked meeting her eyes. She gave me a sad smile "I'm not to sure..." she paused thinking not meeting my eyes "can I ask you a question?"

"You can ask me what ever you want" I spoke

I felt her hand move to my arm tracing over one of my tattoos with her middle finger. My body stiffing at her touch feeling as if my stomach was doing somersaults. Her touch was soft and gentle "Did you read the article?" She asked her eyes watching her finger draw a moth

"I didn't" I spoke. I don't think anyone could of made me read the article...that sounds crazy because who wouldn't want to read about themselves in a article that's being reposted everyday? but I didn't, I didn't need to

I didn't want to know anything about the girl infront of me unless it came from her herself

"How come?" She asked tilting her gear slightly

"I want to know you Nessa...I don't wanna know what a article says about you" I said feeling her hand stop

She looked up at me as my eyes never left hers "you know Josh?" She asked hesitate

I nodded not knowing if this question was a sensitive topic "I do" I spoke "but I'm not friends with him...I'm friends with Bryce. He helped move me out here"

"Do you know?" She asked leaving the question open for interpretation

"I only know that he's your ex...Bryce told me" I explained

Nessa nodded "Me and Josh dated for a a little bit" she started "he wasn't the best guy...if his friends said something about me he believed them" she frowned "or if they said something mean about me he didn't defend me" I watched as sadness flitted across her face

"But Jaden...he did. He always defended me, he didn't let the boys talk badly about me, even getting into fights with Josh about it" tears brimmed her eyes as she spoke now not looking at me. I took my hand placing it on her arm gently feeling my heart sinking slowly watching her speak.

She closed her eyelids tight hoping the tears would stop "Jaden was good to me" her lips curved upward into a sad smile "he always made sure I was heard and that I had someone. He helped me get my music out there. When I started getting listens and gigs I ended up talking to Josh and told him it'd be best if we'd break up while I worked on my music and he agreed but I was always with Jaden...I don't think I've ever spent as much time with Josh as I did him....I stupidly developed feelings for him" she spoke with her voice softer "and he had a girlfriend...my best friend. My bestfriend was his girlfriend and I fell for him... I tried to stop and get rid of the feeling but I knew he felt the same way" she spoke as her words became angry. Tears slowly started to stream down her cheeks more and more. I brought my hand to her face feeling her flinch at my sudden touch, I slowly slide my thumb to her cheek wiping away a tear as it fell

She laughed painfully "this is the part when you can tell me I'm a shit person and you hate me Y/N"

My thumb softly brushed her cheek as my hand supported her jaw letting the small girl rest her head against it "you can't control who you fall in love with Nessa" I spoke trying to comfort her "I promise"

"I wish I could've...I um- I caught him with-" she stuttered trying to finish her sentence

"Nessa.." I quickly wrapped my arm around the small girls waist pulling her to me feeling her small tears turn into sobs. I rolled on my back pulling her body on top of mine. She instantly buried her head into my neck letting me console her as she tried to contain herself "I got you I promise" I soothed "I'm so sorry Nessa"

I placed my hand on the back of her head running my hand through her hair gently. I felt her body relax on mine as her heavy breathing slowly started to calm down

Her sobs turning into soft sniffles

I traced circles on her back thinking about everything she said. I get it dating your ex boyfriends best friend that's is also your best friend's boyfriend...sounds terrible but could you blame her?

Josh wasn't there for her when he should of been.

I felt her head move feeling her breath inches from my ear sending chills down my spine knowing she'd now fallen asleep. I frowned thinking about how restless she'd been since I've met her.
I yawned feeling sleep start to run through me but I couldn't close my eyes in fear of small girl on top of me waking up. I continued to run my hand through her long hair thinking about everything she said

"this is the part when you can tell me I'm a shit person and you hate me"

How could anyone have the heart to hate her. My mind instantly thought of Kio. I personally never thought I could ever hate someone but Kio? I need a stronger word then hate

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