chelsea

never blame me, even though it was my fault.

I'm a bastard. A stupid nut in the crack that deserves the pain of hell while the devil down there cussed me his despair. Honestly, The thing about me is I can never stick to one. All my relationships ended because of me, even though they kept telling me that they were at fault. No, it is mine. The urge of people that swoon over me through love is rock bottom hard, I get so high whenever someone flirts with me. Even if it was just a mere stranger, I can't control them whenever someone bites their lips and touches my hand. I fuck them so hard that my own self-being couldn't believe that I've come too much to count.

The awful shit thing afterward during the honeymoon phase, I get sick of their own problems and taunt them with words that are dangerous but there is something about me that I would never leave them despite me cheating behind their backs. I love the thrill, the anger, shock, gasp, and tears whenever they find out that I did it behind their backs. Till this fucking man appeared too fast, he caught me too fast since I've fallen too fast. There is something about him that I want that I've never had with those bitches before, it was a rainy night. Specifically, I was outside of our apartment since my lover left my home to go to his family. I smoked a ton that day while flirting with this boy- no man on a gaming app. He was far away from me but I didn't know why there was something that urged me to grab my passport and fly to where he was. I didn't bring anything aside from my wallet, cigarettes, and phone.

By the time I landed, I went out to see a man waiting with a smile planted on his face. Take note, I've never seen his face yet we have been talking for just 3 weeks. He was average but the thing that got my attention is his voice and his hands. It was so fascinating to hear and my mind just couldn't shut the fuck up when imagining his hands all over me. He called out, as I hurried and instantly kissed his smiling mouth. He slightly push me back since he was shocked, "Hey-"

" I just came here to fuck, don't think this is something" He laughed as I reach for his hands and gasped when our hand's touch. " Take me home now"

" I haven't fuck in a while, so prepare yourself" " No. You prepare yourself"

By the time we got to his place - technically it was his workplace. He was the type who sleeps at his workplace so he won't be late. I pull his head down, smack our lips so that our tongue plays instantly, and I grab his hands and place him at my butt to command him to squeeze. He pulled out the kiss as the saliva string that connected us snapped out, he looked at me and there was a fury in his eyes. " Fuck, you're good" as I shut him up with my lips.

It happened so fast, and it was the most awesome thing that happened in my life. After three times, he slipped out and collapsed on the floor. I pant for a while and try to sit up while covering up my boobs with my arms.

" fuck! Shit! I-I didn't even have a condom on-"

" I'm on birth control, so don't worry about that" I reach for my dress and place it above my chest to cover it and look at the time on my phone. " It's 5 in the morning on a Tuesday, I'm sorry about that. You have work, don't you?" Grab a cigarette stick and flick the fire of my steel lighter while waiting for a reply. He sighs instead and looks at me for a minute while I smoke and proceeds to snatch my cigarette. " That's mine-" " Didn't I tell you not to smoke? Such a bitch" He places the bud in his lip and inhales the drug and lets it out like it didn't bother him. " Don't you have work?"

" We are at my work, fucking." He laughs while looking at me. " You are something else that is why I like you so much, no - i fucking want you" " Good. You only want me, that's the same as mine. Don't want me too much that becomes to the extent of a necessity"

" This is actually not a date to be with, fucking on the day we personally see one other-" He lean close and lets the smoke on my lips while looking straightly dead at my eyes. " You need me. Was I good?" " You were average and you can never be better because you are a dick" I snatched the stick and pressed the smoke bud down the tile to stop it. " You are always playing the hard-to-get type- yet here you are being so adorable that I knew you were going to be" " Don't test me, I'm a player. You are just another mistake" I lifted my body off the floor and began putting on my dress. " you are indeed a bitch, you don't even care I call you one"