I woke up in a happy mood for some reason. I didn't understand why but I felt so happy. Maybe because of the little date I had with Namjoon? Or I simply am in a good mood. But as usual during the week days I need to go to work. So I got up, stretched a little since I have been feeling a bit tense lately. The reason for that is unknown and even if I find out I ain't telling you.
I made my bed and opened my curtain to reveal bright warm sunlight through my window. It's always the best feeling having warm sunlight spread across your face when you wake up. I take it as a sign saying 'It's going to be a great day'.
I went out to the kitchen to make a quick, simple breakfast since I was running a bit late. Once I finished, I grabbed phone, keys to my apartment and ran out like nobody's business. Now getting ready for work was one thing, however it's always getting there that kinda stresses me out.
Especially when you literally have to beg someone younger that you that you practically raised to give you a ride to work. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. It gets tiring because first of, he takes at least an hour to reach my apartment, he always has to go over to his boyfriends WHILE I AND MY SINGLE SELF HAVE TO WAIT IN THE CAR BEFORE HE FINALLY DECIDES TO TAKE ME TO WORK. It sucks being single.
After what felt like years of waiting he finally arrived. "Hey hyung, did you wait long?" he says with that annoyingly cute eye smile.
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"Geez Jimin, I don't know? It's not like I called you an hour ago to get here," I said in a sarcastic tone.
"Oh c'mon hyung, I didn't take that long," he says rolling his eyes. "You know what, I don't even want to argue with you today. Look, today is going to be really busy because of Valentines Day and I still need to go to the hospital for another checkup at 3 so pleeease for once in your life make it on time."
After mentioning the visit to the hospital, his expression seemed to drop. With his voice in a low and serious tone he says, "You're still on medication? hyung, are you getting any better? You know, I could assign you to a better hospital." I looked up at him giving him soft smile, "It's okay Jiminie. Besides I don't think I can afford going to such a hospital and you know it." "But I can pay off all the bills," his voice soft but stern. "Jiminie, you know very well I can't let you do that. That money is for your college fees and we both know it's more important than my hospital bills." He just sighs and opens the door. "Get in. We don't want you to be more late than you already are." He gave a soft smile but I read right through him. I knew how much he wanted to help and I appreciate that but I don't want him to throw his future away for me.
I'm going to die anyways. I just don't have the heart to tell him yet.
The drive to work was silent and kinda depressing. I tried turning the radio on but nothing interesting was on so I thought to finally break the ice and start a conversation. "So how are Tae and Kook?" He looked me and quickly averted his eyes on the road again. "Same as usual. We decided right after graduating we'll move in together. We already found some pretty good apartments so I think we'll be all set." I simply nodded my head. Silence returned and it remained that way the entire trip.
When we arrived to my destination, I got out the car and said my goodbyes to Jimin. "Bye Jiminie, tell Tae and Kook I said 'hi'." "Yeah sure hyung. Enjoy your day at work and remember to call me immediately after finishing." "Yeah I will. 'Maybe 2 hours earlier'. Bye."
I slammed the door such and quickly ran to shop. I love Valentines for so many reasons. The gifts, the treats, the growing love for your partner. It's an amazing holiday. BUT. There is one thing I don't like about it. And that's how it's ALWAYS packed in the store. When one customer walks out, ten more walk in. Its exhausting. Yep, the disadvantage of working at a candy store on valentines day.
Even though there is a bit of chaos, I absolutely love the holiday. It brings back so many memories and I want to find someone to share these memories with. Someone who'll make me just as happy as everyone else. I want someone to cuddle with, someone to feel safe around, someone who'll accept me for who I am. I have been looking for that someone for years and no luck. But something tells me that this year is going to be a little different.
I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
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Okay sooooo this chapter was a little longer than I planned it to be. Well as long as y'all enjoyed it I'm happy. But I have a question for you
