apple cider | blue lock

9.

ugh i love rin sm.. :((

enjoy this chapter solely dedicated to my favorite little bf, rin itoshi 🤭

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while in pxg, rin was quickly losing his mind. not slowly. quickly.

not only was shidou ryusei one of the few from the original blue lock to choose france, so did karasu, who he was honestly never fond of.

rin hated cocky guys the most.

not only was he insanely cocky just to be less than mediocre at a sport rin excelled in, he was also always acting weird whenever he was around rin. it was confusing to poor rin and annoyed him to no end. who the hell did he think he was?

then, there was you.

to rin, you were also annoying as hell but not in the same way shidou or karasu was. you were more annoying by the way your entire existence confused him. it was almost like it was hard for rin to believe that you were an actual real human that was existing at the same time as him, even worse, in his life.

he didn't know why he found you fascinating, or alluring, or even attractive. for hours, he'd drive himself insane trying to figure it out, put the very few pieces he gathered together. in the end, he always came up with a scrambled mind and the inability to face you without getting pissed off or insanely flustered. he just wanted to know what kind of sick spell you put on him. he was supposed to be focusing on his career and how this blue lock project was setting that up for him, not some dumb girl that wouldn't even come close to mattering to him once blue lock was over.

and rin always had to convince himself he didn't care about you. when he listened to you complain about how cold the room was, even with your blanket covering you and rin wanted to give you his sweatshirt, he told himself you didn't matter. when he couldn't resist the temptation and sweetly kissed your forehead after he carried your sleeping figure back to your room when he found you asleep in the workout room from pushing yourself too hard, he told himself he didnt care.

even when he wanted to kiss you that time he had you pinned up against the wall and felt the way your lips lightly grazed against his, he had to calm himself down and delude himself into thinking he didn't absolutely need you.

but for some reason, that all crumbled the second he watched you collapse during the u-20 game. he didn't even try to ignore the way his heart nearly stopped at the sight of you, wanting nothing more than to run over to you and hold you the way stupid isagi was, against the warmth of his chest and whispering sweet words of reassurance in your ear. he didn't ignore the immense jealously he felt when bachira kissed your cheek. it only reminded him of when that multi colored hair idiot let it slip that you and him had kissed, even bragging about it after bachira noticed that rin had a reaction to that information. he didn't care anymore. not about keeping up that impression that he wasn't completely and utterly in love with you. not that you had others coddling you and if he went over, one more wouldn't matter. and he definitely did not care that everyone was watching.

for once in a very long time, rin let his mind clear as he briskly walked over towards you, not caring that he had to push stupid yukimiya out of the way, and took you from isagi's gentle hold. all rin wanted to do was hold you, and praise you, and make sure that you were safe and okay but only with him. not anyone else.

he couldn't resist wanting to shower you in affection anymore, though he only kissed the top of your head. he told himself that was enough. that's what he could live with for the rest of his life if you were stolen from his life. that was until he set you down and gazed down at your tear clad eyelashes as you had your eyes closed and flushed face. your messy hair that still made you look pretty and the way you looked while tired and covered in sweat after a goal that even rin was impressed by.

the sight of you was breathtaking and rin was glad that he had the pleasure of looking at you while like this.

rin's mouth was moving before he could even realize that he was speaking. it was almost hard to comprehend that the words he spoke to you left his mouth. he wanted to win this match for himself. not anyone else. why were you always barging in on his always calculating mind? why did he just let it happen?

he didn't really know what was happening and if anyone were to ask him to explain with the least amount of details possible, he wouldn't even be able to. but what he did know is that if you spoke to him with your enticing voice, rin wouldn't be able to resist you any longer.

"okay.." you spoke, doing the one thing rin hoped you wouldn't do with your shaky voice, wincing slightly as you tried adjusting yourself in your seat. and yes, rin was slowly losing his mind but he hadn't yet completely lost his composure. he hadn't quite forgotten that he was in a stadium full of people with more people watching the interaction not even a few inches away from where the two of you were. luckily, rin was able to reduce his intense and ever growing feelings for you into the mere brush of his lips against your soft ones.

it was like a breath of fresh air that rin had been deprived of his whole life. and if he wasn't itoshi rin, a pro at burying his emotions despite being so protruding, he'd have thought about the feeling of your lips that he craved so much until he went insane with desperation and grief at the loss of your lips on his.

for some reason, rin had thought it was enough. not enough to finally forget about you- he wasn't that powerful against his mind, even less powerful against his heart. no, rin thought it was enough for you to possibly gather the mere thought of reciprocating his feelings. because maybe, if he expressed his emotions after forgetting to do so out of fear of rejection, you'd actually accept his fragile heart and mind, accept all of him the way he prayed anyone would.

but every day that passes in the pxg stratum, rin's hope that you also felt deeply for him was withering slowly but surely away.

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