Fated

31. Nightmare

                                                                              JANE POV

"Look she is here!" A guy tells as I passed through him. "Why don't we have some fun with her."

"Oh. Don't do that. Look she walks with crutches. Why bully a disable person?" The girl next to him says.

"I don't understand. How can college allowed her to study here?" Other guy says.

"Don't say like this." Other girl says.

Ignoring them I walk inside the class. It took me long to stand and walk on my feet again. Doctor even told I'll be unable to walk again. But with great persistence I stood and walk again. It was long journey of pain and disappointment.

A guy from behind kicked my crutches, I lost my balance and fell on the ground. Seeing me fall everyone starts to laugh. No one come to help me. The echo of  laughter brings fear on my heart. The laughing grows louder and louder at the same time my fear increases. People making fun of the person who lacks.

Other day at the college. "Come on Jane. Can't you stand up." The guy says and he took my crutches. Making me unable to get up from my seat. I tried hard to get up from the chair bit fail every time as my legs cannot withstand that much pressure. Seeing me in agony was entertainment for everyone. "She can't even stand and got 1st place in the exam." Someone says from behind. " That's right. What irony." And continue to laugh. They always made fun of me. Seeing me struggling or suffering, was enjoyment for them. I was an easy target and source of entertainment for them. Many times they used to kick my crutches or take them away from me. They even locked me in the bathroom. Even though I filed complain against them. They were never severe punished for it. They bullied me so much. College classmates laughing at me.

"She's daughter, what can she do?" My father voice echo. "She will only embarrass us if we don't teach her right. She should know what are the things a girl should do and not do."  

"She's doesn't behave like girl." My mother says. 

"I don't want daughter like her. I wanted son, not daughter." My father words echo. "I wanted a son."

"Save my son first." My parents words ran in my ear. "Please save my son. He's life is more important."

Save my son. 

Look she can't even walk.

Pity girl! Her parents left her.

My mind keeps on repeating them. The clubs scenes flashes in my mind. A guy with no face grading my hand and pulling me inside the room. He throws me on the ground and climb on top of me. The no face guy's face coming near my face.

Look at her, she's so pitiful. She's such a burden.

Save my son.

Can't even walk.

No. No. No. Please don't come.

"Jane. Wake up." I hear a sound in the dark world, a ray of light appears in the dark. "Jane." I jolt my eyes open. My heart beating rapidly, chests moving up and down. Sweats cover my forehead. I look at Christian. He looked so worried. He has a big frown on his forehead. "Jane. Are you okay? It's just a nightmare. It's not real. It's just a bad dream."

I buried my head in his chest. "Christian. I'm scared." I say in weak voice. "They don't want me. They never wanted me. I'm always a burden for everyone." 

"Jane, what are you talking?" He caress my face, "You're not a burden."

"Then why, no one wants me?" I ask him in low tone.

"Why are saying no one wants you." He say "I want you. I need you in my life." 

"You need me? Why do you need a broken soul like me?" My eyes well with tears.

He keeps quite. 

"See you can't even answer?" I say. "No one really wants me. I'm just a burden passing from one to another. First, my parents, for them I was always a burden. They got a chance to leave me during accident. Then, I was burden for Nana. As I've to go through rehabs and everything. After I came to city, I became a burden to you. Your family." I say in a defected tone. "Christian, why don't you leave me too?" I feel numb. I don't even realize what I'm speaking. I'm having a mental breakdown. I can't think rationally or logically. 

Christian places his hand on my chin and lift my face. His gaze met mine. He bends and claims my lips. He moves his lips over mine. "Do you still think no one wants you?" He says and kiss me again. Not giving me time to understand what's going on. He kiss my cheeks, my nose and my forehead. "Never tell no one wants you. There are people who wants you and needs you." He says. 

"Really?" 

"Really." He assure me. He hugs me. I bury my face on his cheat. Inhaling his strong masculine perfume. His warmth warming me. He stroke my hair and rub my back. Babying me to sleep. Was it because of him or the medicine I took? I feel asleep. Just think today's event as bad event and forget about it.

The next day, when I open my eyes. I'm alone in the room. Maybe Christian is in bathroom? Yes, he must be in there. But I can't hear the sound of water. I got up and went to bathroom. I knock on the door. No one voice comes from inside. I slowly open the door. It was empty. He is not here. Where did he go? Did he left me too? Fear rises in my heart. No one wants me.

The door of our room opens, Christian comes in with a tray in his hand. "Morning." He says while setting the tray on the coffee table. He look at me, "What happen?"

I said nothing and hugged him. 

"What's wrong?" He says while wrapping his hand around me.

"I thought you left me." I say in slow voice.

"How can I dare to leave you?" He says. "I went to bring you breakfast." 

"Oh." I say and move away from him.

"See what I bought for you." He says. "Wait, did you brush your teeth?" 

"I just got up." I say honestly.

"Go brush your teeth." He say and gently push me to bathroom. After brushing my teeth, I come out and have breakfast with Christian. After breakfast, "Today we're going to relax and pamper ourselves." He declare. "We're going to spa and sauna." He says with excitement. "Let's go." 

We went to spa. We had full body massage. It was relaxing. Like he said, the whole day we relaxed and pamper ourselves.