Lady Negative

Page 9: " Curiosities in my mind "

[ Nova as Narrator ]

             " Hello, I'm Nova, and in my situation right now, it's quite interesting.  I recently finished my first year in Stellar Nova, and I'm currently heading to my mother's home to visit her and my grandmother. But while I'm riding this LBT ( Levitating Bullet Train ), i had some curiosities in my head, and it seems that the more i observed people, the more curious i got."

" My curiosity peaked as i got to interact and observe my fellow students. They seem to be diverse, especially in the way they interact with me and the way they treat me, so i got quite curious. What would it be if i was in their position? What if i was the non-gifted person instead? What would it be if i was just an ordinary girl ? Would it make a difference in how i interact and perceive people? Or will my interactions be more positive and livelier if i was just an ordinary girl? It bothers me sometimes, but i also have a few more curiosities."

" Why is my beauty unique? I see other women have their hair colored white, so why is mine unique? In what way does my look differ from others? I wonder because many people compliment me on how unique i look and that my beauty is different, i do wonder that if i changed how i look, will they still see me as beautiful? If i dye my hair, black or brown, will they still think that i look unique? I would think that they would see me differently if i changed my look, and since i have been quite bothered with how annoying people have been to me, i will change my look for a bit so that they wont bother me anymore. "

" Cotinuing my curiosities when it comes to love. I recently saw a college couple broke up because of an issue, and it was quite a messy public break-up, and many observers were quite divided on their opinions on the break-up. Some sided the girl, and some sided with the guy, and apparently, the breakup was caused by a misunderstanding, so i was curious. Is love that weak? Is love fragile? Why would people love if they are immature and easily hurt? Why would they love if pain is inevitable? Is love everlasting like the movies that tell of love being unending and everlasting? "

" I wonder because my mother and father have been husband and wife for a considerable amount of time now, so i want to know if their relationship will span until their untimely deaths. It gives love a quite infamous reputation of being a double-edged sword, one side  being wonderful and happy while the other being just hurt and despair, so it makes my mother's advice on love quite valid, i don't want to perceive love as negative as there as some that are happy and satisfied so i need more observation and time to know what love really is. "

" Lastly, i wanted to look different in the next school year because i don't quite like the attention that i am receiving, i genuinely want peace and i cannot get it if i look beautiful in their eyes so i will most likely cut my hair a bit shorter and wear more formal clothes because they seem to like my casual style so if i do this then maybe they would stop and let me enjoy my life without any interruptions or anoyyance. "