Shadows Of Us. (Connor Jessup fanfic)

Chapter 14: Oblivion

It was right before new years.

Connor and I were in Canada, but we were attending his mothers funeral rather then visiting her in the hospital.

He broke down, in a nutshell. He cried, punched a wall, yelled at me, and cried some more after I gave him cake.

It was chocolate.

After his metal breakdown, he didn't really talk much. I knew it was taking a toll on him, he blames himself. I think it just bothered him more that his brother had no idea about any of this to begin with.

Liam had came home for the holidays only to realize that he wouldn't be able to hug his mother. I could feel my heart break for him even though I had never met him.

"Liam's mad at me. He won't talk to me." Connor says as we were in a rental car, on the way to a cemetery. He was in a black and navy suit, and I was actually wearing a dress.

"He just got home from being stationed thousands of miles away for Christmas and found out his mother died from cancer. He probably just needs a little time." I say sympathetically.

"He can have all the time in the world and it still wouldn't change the fact that she's gone." He says, his grip tightening on the steering wheel.

I didn't know what to say after that. He was sad, I was already breaking my promise with his mother.

It was breaking me.

I decide to stay silent. I didn't know what to say to make him feel better about this right now and I didn't want to aggravate him further while on the way to his mothers burial.

Eventually, we got there.

Everyone was wearing black and despite the gloomy mood, it was sunny. It was naturally chilly, considering it was Canada, but the sun was shining as if it would swallow us whole tomorrow.

A lot of people were crying, as well. A few children that were old enough to understand had tears on their cheeks while the younger ones, had no idea that today was any different than a normal Thursday.

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Connor didn't want to go the dinner they had catered after the funeral. He said he wanted to walk around his old neighborhood, maybe visit old friends before he had to leave.

I was willing to walk around in uncomfortable shoes if that cheered him up.

We ended up on a small and abandoned playground. He leaned against the swing set while I sat on one of the swings.

It creaked really loudly when I sat, making me wonder if it would break. Connor seemed too observant of the surrounding area to even look towards me.

"Liam used to take me here once a month after school." He says suddenly, so quiet I barely caught it. I could tell he was in the memory by the way a small, almost nonexistent smile etched onto his face.

"I had just started 6th grade, he was in high school. He knew I didn't necessarily fit in so he'd bring me here so I wouldn't always end up playing by myself." He says and chuckles dryly.

"One day, I thought I was too old for coming to a playground because, I mean, I probably was. So we just went out to the backyard and set up a tent one night. We slept outside, our mom brought us snacks and we just talked all night." He says and sighs in remembrance.

"He told me what not to do on a date and stories about the crazy stuff him and his friends used to do. I remember always wishing that I could, maybe one day, tell a crazy story about something stupid I did. I hoped it would be to my kids and maybe their uncle will be with us in a tent in the backyard.

"But now, that doesn't seem likely. Liam is hotheaded, he likes to hold grudges. He argued with me over the fact that I succumbed to my mothers stubborn ways and didn't tell him. He said he couldn't even look at me. As if I can even look at me." He voice cracks and I hear sniffles. I stand up, yet I give him his space.

I let a few moments pass before speaking. "You're his brother. You both already lost a mother, it would be a shame to loose each other. I promise your kids will have both a father and an uncle that'll sleep inside a tent with them in the backyard." I say only loud enough for him to hear.

His back was towards me, I bit my lip in anticipation because I didn't know what he was going to do or say.

He turned around and met my gaze. He walled a few steps towards me and cupped my face with his hands. His thumb was gently caressing my cheek.

"And I want you to be their mother." He says before kissing me passionately.

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So. This. Is. The. Last. Chapter.

As in, thats it.

No more.

I've given up on this, I started it with high hopes but ended it only because you guys at least deserve closure

BUT ITS OVER, WHOO.

SHITTIEST BOOK ENDING AWARD GOES TO ME, YAY

I ALSO WANT TO DO A Q&A SO IF YOU'D ASK QUESTIONS, THAT'D BE FANTASTIC.

IM HONESTLY OKAY WITH ONE PERSON ASKING LIKE THIRTY, IM GOING TO ANSWER THEM ALL...IF I EVEN GET ANY.

I probably wont get a single question...

But if you do wish to ask questions, please lemme know if its for a specific character or myself or just in general.

A little something about the ending, it was not planned. Its 2am and I was deleting stuff on my phone and I was like, "oh wow I haven't even bothered with this story in forever"

oops.

But anyways, ask stuff please, and I may or may not make a playlist but I mean I doubt any of you care so

I'm also debating on an epilogue...

lovely.

have a lovely day.