Shadows Of Us. (Connor Jessup fanfic)

Chapter 7: Cheers To A New Start

Ara's POV

I can't wait for lunch. Currently sitting here in choir reading over our sheet music and the only thing on my mind is food.

All of a sudden, the doors to choir room open and Jake walks through. He surprisingly hasn't done anything to me since Formal. I just hope he isn't in this class now.

Please don't be in this class.

Please don't be in this class.

Please don't be in this class...

"Um, i got a schedule change. I'm supposed to be in this class now." He says.

Fuck my life.

We didn't even have a single class together but now we do. Lovely, another place for him to annoy and harass me.

Mrs. Mattox looks at his schedule and points for him to sit on the risers. I do a mental happy dance as it's in the other side of the class from where I am.

As he walks to his seat, we make eye contact. To be honest, he looks either tired or depressed. I simply ignore him until the bell rings signaling that it's lunch time.

I walk down to the cafeteria and get my so called "nutritious" meal. I then sit at the usual spot in the corner.

"Yo." Connor says with his food as he sits down.

"Why aren't you wearing your glasses?" I ask randomly.

"I'm wearing contacts?" He says in a questioning tone. I furrow my eyebrows and tilt my head.

"But why? Now I'm the loner who has four eyes."

"I don't know why... I just kinda am." He shrugs and then i see Amber approaching us.

That's why.

Next thing i know she is sitting next to Connor with her arm around his. I shift in my chair uncomfortably.

"So... Amber. How's it going?" I rest my chin in my hands and pretend like I'm interested.

"Good. What about you? How's life workin' for ya?" She says and rests her head on his shoulders.

"Oh life. That silly thing. It's a Fantastic Wonderland. Thanks for asking." I say sarcastically and put on the most fake smile i can pull off.

Connor clears his throat. "I've been well, also." He says awkwardly and glares at me.

After that, there's an awkward silence.

"Well, I'll leave you two alone. I need to get something from History." I say while getting up and walking out the cafeteria not caring much for a response of some sort.

I walk back to the building where choir is and sit on a bench inside.

Lost in my own thoughts i hear someone clear their throat, "Can i sit here?" Jake asks quietly. I shrug as a reply and sigh.

"What do you want?" I ask annoyed as he sits next to me.

"Look, i know you probably hate me, and i don't blame you. But i wanted to apologize. For everything. I spent the last two days trying to figure out how to say this and nothing comes to mind because simply saying "sorry" feels like it should be an insult. You deserve so much more than that. I never knew you actually cut yourself and I feel awful and heartbroken at that because i am the main reason why you did that to yourself. I don't even know why i did any of that stuff to you. I'm such an asshole and i understand if you don't like what i am about to say," he takes in a deep breath and continues;

"I really like you. Like, i want to be with you... I know you don't want anything to do with me and i get that. But i just needed you to know. Also i should've been more supportive about what happened with Christina. I'm saying i should've done all these things but obviously i didn't." I inhale deeply.

"I don't know what to say to any of that." I honesty say exasperated.

"You don't have to say anything. I just want you to know that i truly apologize and I'm sorry for your loss. I'll get going now." He says and starts to stand up.

"Wait, what did you mean when you said that you like me?" I stand up along with him.

"I meant that you really did look beautiful that night and still today. I'll never know why i just realized it, but you're an amazing girl. You have wonderful personality and i envy you future husband because he gets to pass that on to the next generation with you. I guess overall, yes. I do like you to the point where i think it's more but that doesn't matter. At least now it doesn't..." He looks at the ground and i grab his arm. He turns around and pull him into a hug.

I don't know why i am hugging the person who is number one on my hit list, but i am. We both pull away and his hands are on my waist. He puts his forehead to mine and starts to lean in. I don't know whether if it is actually me or all the confusion going on in my head that leans forward and crashes my lips to his.

For some reason, sparks were flying all around the place. I never even understood that term until now...

Eventually we pull away and i look into his light brown eyes. "Do you maybe want to start over?" He says still dazed from that kiss i am assuming. All i am able to do is nod my head. We break apart completely and he holds his hand out.

"Jacob McGrath. But you can call me Jake." He says with a cheesy grin and shake his hand.

"Arabella Everhart. But you can me Ara." I smile.

"Do you want to maybe go on a date with me on Friday?" He says and scratches the back of his neck nervously.

"Sure." I smile for no absolute reason.

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A/N wellllllllllll PLOT TWIST. Yeah, you may or may not hate me. Also a short chapter... But uhhhh i warned you, not a typical love story. Might not even be one at all... Also Ara = Air-UH just to clear up any confusion...

Yeah, more major plot twists to come. And i am proud of this chapter. It is currently 2:52am and that goes to show that i am a better writer late at night rather than during the day cause last chapter i wrote last afternoon... Lmfao wow, Miranda. WOW. btw sarah, if you read this i love you and I'll see you soon, bae.♥

Okay, I just switched keyboards on my phone and holy cheese balls. This is lovely. Okay I will post once again tonight (Yeah, I am amazing I know.) Just cause this keyboard is fabulous as fuck.

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By the way, I was gonna make this rated R but shit happens.

Farewell.

~Mirfanduh★

P.S. I am debating whether or not to make "Arabella" Lily Collins or Kristina Romanova so please Google them if you don't know then already and comment which she should be. Tenk you.

P.P.S. Drew Roy is Jake. Mainly cause he is perfect for this role and I will post the full character list for you bread sticks. :D