"Because I do." He says and half smiles.
"I love you too, bruh." I say and he suddenly tightens his grip around the wheel while clenching his teeth.
A few minutes later, we pull into a parking lot. We both get out of the car and start walking towards a building that says, "Women's College Hospital" over the doors.
"Why is everyone smiling? People here have cancer." I whisper while getting into the elevator.
"Its Canada. Plus, if you had cancer would you want everyone around you to be all depressed?" He says while pushing the button for the fourth floor and I purse my lips together. "I guess not. But I wouldn't want everyone to be fake as shit either." I say.
The elevator stops and opens. I take a deep breath as we step out and walk to the right. When we get in front of the room, he kisses my temple and smiles at me reassuringly.
"Hey, mom." Connor says and walks over to her. She sits up to hug him and she softly laughs.
"You got contacts, you don't look like such a geek anymore." She says and laughs. I crack a small smile.
"Yeah, yeah. Anyways, this is Ara." He says and motions towards me. I smile and hold out my hand for her to shake. "Oh, nonsense with that hand shake. Give me a hug, Connor never shuts up about you." I awkwardly laugh and lean over the bed to hug her. I rub her back before pulling away. I also notice she has green eyes, just like Connor's.
"I hope he said good things, at least." I say. "Oh my god, he tells me everything. About how you two always watch movies until three in the morning and about how beautiful your smile is, which is very true by the way, not to mention-" Connor cuts her off. "Mom, I think that's good." He says with rosie cheeks.
"Am I embarrassing you?" She asks. "Yes." He says and heavily sighs. "Don't give your mother an attitude." I say and narrow my eyes at him.
"Seriously, if you won't listen to me, at least listen to her. Who knows, I might embarrass you more. I have tons of baby photos." She says and raises an eyebrow.
"I would sell my soul to see those photos." I say and Connor groans. "You can't sell anything if I burn them." He says and his mom laughs.
"You'd have to find them first." She says and Connor sighs. "I'm going to go find a bathroom. I'll be back." He says before exiting the room.
Feeling awkward, I sit in the chair close to the bed.
"He really cares about you, you know." She says and I nod. "I care about him, too." I say and softly smile.
"Will you promise me something?" She asks with a serious face. "Of course, anything." I say after nodding.
"Just take care of him in case I don't make it." She says and pauses before continuing. "Make sure he's always happy." She says above a whisper with tears welling in her eyes.
"You're going to make it." I say with confidence.
After a few painful silent moments she speaks again. "Please, just promise me." She says with a few tears rolling down her cheek.
"I promise. I'll make sure he's happy even if it means I'm not." I say and smile reassuringly with tears of my own starting to form. She nods.
"Thank you." She says and softly smiles.
*
About half an hour later, the doctor comes in to tell us that she needs to go into surgery.
I get up to hug her so I can give her and Connor time alone.
She wraps her arms around me. "Remember our promise." She whispers in my ear before letting go. I nod while smiling slightly and go wait outside for Connor.
*
I should be on Wheel On Fortune. I keep having to contain my excitement when I guess the phrase before the contestants and its actually correct.
Connor, on the other hand, looks extremely worried. I've never seen him this down before. I want to try to comfort him but I don't know how so I just rub my hand up and down his back. He glances back at me and faces his head towards the floor once again.
"No matter what happens, it'll all be okay." I say above a whisper and he sighs.
"I can't loose her. Especially knowing I could've spent her last few months playing monopoly and watching Dancing With The Stars with her." He says and runs his fingers through his hair roughly for the eighth time.
"You have to look at the bright side of things. You can't have any regrets, it'll just make things worse for you."
"I don't need you telling me what to do and what not to do." He says with anger in his voice and walks out of the waiting room.
I just take a deep breath and stay in my seat.
I know he's just angry and didn't mean it. I was the same way when Christina passed. I was such a bitch to Lucas, was I'm lucky he even bothered to stay in my life.
I just hope he didn't actually mean it.
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A/N
hi my name is miranda and I knit while listening to dubstep and heavy rock what's your name
Have you guys seen the trailer for "What Doesn't Kill You" the new film Connor is going to be in? it makes me so emotional holy fūck (link may or may not be on the side lol it'll be a surprise)
sorry this is short guys I tried I really did guys I'm sorry I'm a failure
I may or may not have cried while writing this
Its crazy how electroshock therapy still exists like yes electrocute me I will totally no longer be depressed bitch no fücking dumb fûck
I swear if I had a dime for every time I said Connor's name or "fuçk" I'd own Donald Trump and Oprah
it makes me moist when connor curses in his tweets lmao bye
P.S. if you like smut and Connor Jessup then go read the Connor Jessup Imagines on my profile and I follow back just saying
P.P.S. if you like Drew Roy, bands and mailboxes go read The Apartment by (spoiler alert) me. lol.
P.P.P.S. Connor was actually born at Women's College Hospital idek how I know that just throwing that out there lmfao okay bye
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Shadows Of Us. (Connor Jessup fanfic)
Fanfiction"Are you okay?" I ask randomly while walking and I can tell she is surprised and uncomfortable with the question. "Yeah, I'm fine." She says and smiles. This morning I would've believed it. But now getting to know her, I don't.
