My ruined life

Chapter 1

Hazels pov
⚠️ SEXUALL ASULT ⚠️

Summers over and schools starting, I'm nervous for school start but luckily I have my best friend with me. Emma, I really don't know if I would be alive without her. She's been here through a lot, a lot is a understatement she been here through it all. I really have been eating a lot this summer. Am I gonna get bullied for being fat again? Am I gonna be bullied for all my scars? Am I gonna be bullied for only having one friend? Am I. I stop myself, I can't be overthinking it again. What do I wear tomorrow?

I pick out a tight red T-shirt, a black cardigan, and black cargo jeans. It's late I should probably sleep, hmm but maybe I can call Emma for just a little bit I call Emma and she answered quickly, " Hey Ems how you doing? " I say, " I'm fine I guess just nervous for school start tomorrow. How are you? " she replied. " Same. Hey what if we wanna hangout tonight? Just a hour or two? " I asked her. " Fvck yeah let's go to the abandoned park. " she said " Okayy cya in 15 " I said and hanged up, I put on a hoodie and sweat pants, my shoes and a jacked around my waist in case I got cold, because it was late.

I got to the park and saw her swinging, I ran up to her because I hadn't seen her in almost two weeks. " Heyy! I've missed you so much " I said, " Oh my god me too I've been thinking about you but haven't been wanting to bother you! " she said " You? Bother me? Have you gone insane? Haha " I said as we both started laughing

We sat around and talked for a while before we saw it was 12 PM, " I need to get home " she said " Yeah me too " I said and we said our good bye's. I started walking home but took a short cut through a dark forest. It was scary I'm not gonna lie but I wanted to get home quickly,

I put on my head phones and put on my ' late night walks ' playlist and started vibing. I felt like I was being watched but I shook off the feeling. I saw a van up ahead which made me want to turn around but I didn't for some stupid reason.

I get to the van and walk past it but than. The door opens and two people come out and grab me. I tried screaming but they had their hands wrapped around my mouth. They picked me up and put me in back of the van, one of them brought a paper cloth with some kind of drug on it and put it on my mouth. How I know there was some kind of drug on it? Well maybe because I started blacking out.

I wake up in the van and tried screaming and moving. But there was tape on my mouth and my hands were tied together behind me on a pole, and my legs were tied together. A guy came from the front seat to the back of the van, he came up to me and took out a pocket knife. He held it against my throat and started touching me, I made a sound and he pushed against my throat with the knife almost piercing into my skin.

The other one came back and started fighting with the guy back there touching me, I'm gonna call them W and M. M kept touching me and he started taking of my hoodie. W went out of the van clearly not wanting anything to do with what was about to happen, M shouted " HEY W Bring her a cup of ' water ' will you " he brought the water and was forcing me to drink it. I started drifting of and the last thing I remember was M grinning.

I woke up naked. My entire body hurts and Im still in the van, the pocket knife was laying there close to my feet. I tried to grab it with my foot but than M came back into the van. He quickly took the knife and brought it against my throat again. He lowered it to my chest and I let out a small scream. He got mad and cut my chest. It started bleeding a lot and hurt like hell so I started tearing up. He took some silver tape and just hardly put it on the fresh wound which made me scream.

Emma's pov

Is haz ok? She hasn't answered me and I'm getting worried, it's like 3 AM and she has not been online or even checked my messages at all. That's not like her. Maybe she went to sleep early, no Haz never sleeps early. I just hope she is ok...

Hazels pov
⚠️ SELF HARM ⚠️

He dropped the knife and left. As much as it hurt I saw my chance of getting out of there. There was a bottle of alcohol laying in a corner too. I quickly got the knife with my foot and grabbed it with my hand. I cut off the tape on my hands but right than and there M came back into the van. I quickly hid my hands as if they were still together. He came up to me and slapped me than went into a corner and started taking of his pants. I quickly cut off the tape on my legs and got up, I took the bottle and smashed it on his head and than kicked him. When he fell to the ground I quickly got out of the opened van door and ran. I just ran until I knew were I was.

I got home and just ran to my room. I saw that Ems had called me and texted me a lot but I just got in the shower and turned it hot. I started crying and than thinking it was my fault. Was I wearing the wrong thing? What did I do to deserve this? It was all to much, I took my razor and just pulled it across my skin. Than, OH GOD. WHAT DID I DO. I quickly got out of the shower and wrapped a red towel around my body. My arms and legs were stinging badly.

No way I'm going to school tomorrow. I have to text Em

Emma's pov

I called once again but this time she answered, " Are you ok? What happened? Did something happen? " I asked her. I could see that she had been crying but still she said " No " I could tell she was lying but I didn't want to pressure her to tell me if she didn't want to. " but hey Ems. Uhm I'm not coming to school I'm kinda sick... " she said quietly. " Haz I can tell something's wrong. Please just tell me I'm really worried about you. " I said " oh Uhmm my moms calling me I have to go " she said and ended the call.

I slowly fell asleep

Hey y'all,

So as you know this is my second book but this one's kind of different and this chapter is based of a true incident,

I hope you guys like it so far make sure to vote and comment

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