Emma's pov
I could barely sleep, Haz I need to know if she is ok. I shouldn't bother her tho. I went outside to my stable and put some hay down for my horses. I brushed them and cleaned their hooves, My horse butter cup had a stone in her hood so I had to treat it so it wouldn't get infected after I took the stone out. I went back inside and got changed, a white crop top with a striped black and grey cardigan with a pair of jeans. ' Haz I know something's up please talk to me I'm seriously worried about you and i hope you know that I'm here for you! ' I text her before doing my make up. I did a slight no makeup makeup look because I didn't want to be too extra. I curled my hair and put on my converse,
I got to the buss station just in time. I got into the buss and sat far back were nobody else was sitting. We came to another stop and a guy came in the buss and sat rather close to me. He turned to me and we locked eyes for a second, " H-Hi I'm milo! " he said and reached out his hand. " Emma! " I say and shake his hand, he looked a bit older than me but he was kind of cute to be honest. We started talking and we had the same music taste,
Hazels pov
Em had texted me but I couldn't be bothered answering. I was blasting music into my ears and just staring at the ceiling. I'm probably gonna miss so much since it's the first day. But I couldn't care less my entire body hurts and my head is aching.
I got a text from my bf ' Hey hazel I don't think we are gonna work out. You just aren't really my type and I'm kind of loosing feelings ' my life couldn't get any worse, I couldn't move. I just kept staring at the ceiling, tears started to form in my eyes. I can't believe I let what happened to me make me miss the first day of school and leave my best friend like that. I wish I could just,
I think I'm done with love. I've broken several peoples hearts and I've played with feelings just because I wasn't able to show mine and I've hurt so many people I can't even count it. My best friend. My mom. My sister. They all tried to worn me but this time I'm done, really done with love and happiness. I can't be bothered with anything anymore
Emmas pov
We got to school and i got Milo's snap. He was cute I could see my future with him haha, Me and milo had the same first period and we sat next to each other. " Hello students. We will be going around the classroom and staying name and age " said our teacher. It was my turn " uhm my name is Emma and I'm 16 years old " after everyone stated their name and age the teacher putti us in groups of 3. I got with milo and another girl named Becca. Im still worried about Hazel, Is she O.K? What happened yesterday? Thats enough i cant be stressing over her shes probably fine, Right?
Hazels pov
I feel like shit, I wanna jump off a cliff. My whole life is falling apart. I don't know how to explain how I feel. I feel like numb, or somehow empty. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate the way I talk, the way I act, the way I look, my ears, my lips, my eyes, my hair, my forehead, my nose, my skin, my thighs, I feel disgusted by myself. I still feel that dirty man's hands on my body,

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My ruined life
RandomThis is gonna be a book about mentall health and the harsh elements of life most of the things in this book have happend to me and if anyone feels like they need to vent I'm always here