My ruined life

Schools start

Emma's pov

I could barely sleep, Haz I need to know if she is ok. I shouldn't bother her tho. I went outside to my stable and put some hay down for my horses. I brushed them and cleaned their hooves, My horse butter cup had a stone in her hood so I had to treat it so it wouldn't get infected after I took the stone out. I went back inside and got changed, a white crop top with a striped black and grey cardigan with a pair of jeans. ' Haz I know something's up please talk to me I'm seriously worried about you and i hope you know that I'm here for you! ' I text her before doing my make up. I did a slight no makeup makeup look because I didn't want to be too extra. I curled my hair and put on my converse,

I got to the buss station just in time. I got into the buss and sat far back were nobody else was sitting. We came to another stop and a guy came in the buss and sat rather close to me. He turned to me and we locked eyes for a second, " H-Hi I'm milo! " he said and reached out his hand. " Emma! " I say and shake his hand, he looked a bit older than me but he was kind of cute to be honest. We started talking and we had the same music taste,

Hazels pov

Em had texted me but I couldn't be bothered answering. I was blasting music into my ears and just staring at the ceiling. I'm probably gonna miss so much since it's the first day. But I couldn't care less my entire body hurts and my head is aching.

I got a text from my bf ' Hey hazel I don't think we are gonna work out. You just aren't really my type and I'm kind of loosing feelings ' my life couldn't get any worse, I couldn't move. I just kept staring at the ceiling, tears started to form in my eyes. I can't believe I let what happened to me make me miss the first day of school and leave my best friend like that. I wish I could just,

I think I'm done with love. I've broken several peoples hearts and I've played with feelings just because I wasn't able to show mine and I've hurt so many people I can't even count it. My best friend. My mom. My sister. They all tried to worn me but this time I'm done, really done with love and happiness. I can't be bothered with anything anymore

Emmas pov

We got to school and i got Milo's snap. He was cute I could see my future with him haha, Me and milo had the same first period and we sat next to each other. " Hello students. We will be going around the classroom and staying name and age " said our teacher. It was my turn " uhm my name is Emma and I'm 16 years old " after everyone stated their name and age the teacher putti us in groups of 3. I got with milo and another girl named Becca. Im still worried about Hazel, Is she O.K? What happened yesterday? Thats enough i cant be stressing over her shes probably fine, Right?

Hazels pov

I feel like shit, I wanna jump off a cliff. My whole life is falling apart. I don't know how to explain how I feel. I feel like numb, or somehow empty. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate the way I talk, the way I act, the way I look, my ears, my lips, my eyes, my hair, my forehead, my nose, my skin, my thighs, I feel disgusted by myself. I still feel that dirty man's hands on my body,