English Kisses II L.N.

3

I questioned myself like 100 times before I stepped in the car. With boy that I loved so much when I was young.

I put my seatbelt on and watched the night city. Silent filled the speace in the car, between us until he decided to spoke.

"I don't know where are you staing"

shit i forgot to tell him

"I'm sorry but it's the hotel Hilton"

"All right then, I'm staying there too"

how could i forgot that he is staying there too? he has written Hilton all over his car and fire proof.

I just shake my head and looked at him. So much has change. He isn't a little boy like 10 years ago.

He parked his car and we get out. I grabbed my things from the back and put the bag over my shoulder. We step in the elevator only us being there. I put my finger on nuber 7. Him making the same,  pushing number 8. I leaned my back on the elevator wall and as I deeply sigh.

"You know that I missed you, Ambear."

There I was standing. I couldn't move with anything. Just blank staring. My eyes start wattering as every memory came back. Everything reapeted in my head. Everything  came back even things that I thought that I got over with.

As the number on the display turner 7 I walk from the elevator as fast that I can. I got to my room and slided down, my back touching the door. I bring my knees to my chest and start to cry even more.

"You know that I missed you, Ambear"

Flashback 15 years ago......

"Hey, Lando how was school today?" We used to meet in the tree house that our parents made.

"Really good ,Ambear, I got A from my math exam!"
I know how hard he prepared for that one he couldn't go out that day.

"Ambear?" That was so confusing for my I have never heared that nick name.

"Yes! I've got you a new nickname!" He was so so happy. "You can call me Bob!"

"Okay then ,Bob!"

End of the flashback......

That's how the nicknames were form. I was 9 and he was 10 who would know that he would remeber it after 15 years.

Flashback 10 years ago....

Bob,wanted to meet today he said it is really urgent so meet him at our spot. It was no longer the tree house, it was a bench infront of a small lake.

I saw him coming, wawing at me. He sat down next to me .

"Hi ,Ambear, it's really importnat and I'm sorry that I didn't want to loose you."

"What is it, Lando." He was no longer, Bob, Lan.

"I'm leaving. I have to leave because of my career. I can get better but not here. I'm so sorry, Amber. I'll call, text you everyday. I won't forget you. I'm going to miss you. I love you." Him leaning to me and giving me a kiss on my forehead.

"Stop lying with those words Lando. Go away, go chase your dream and forget me because it will slow you down. Don't text me or call I won't pick up. I would pick up but you chose your future not your past with me. You'll miss me and I'll miss you but this is what it takes. I am saying that I love you not just to comfort you but because I do. I'm sorry but go away now."

I said, I couldn't understand what came from my mouth. He just gave me a weak smile and turned around. I saw my best friend leave me. Tears running like waterfalls from my eyes. That was it I never thought that I would see him again because he wasn't just my best friend he was a boy that I secretly loved.

End of the flashback....

My mind went black and I couldn't breath. And thats how I know that my panick attacks came back.

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Hiiii a little emotional chapter, hope you've liked it!! Also happy Christmas🎄❤️.