English Kisses II L.N.

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Literally I'm crying my eyes out because I finished reading DNF by vivianrussoo😭 love it so much. But yeah lets get to the story......
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LANDO'S POV

She was in my arms as I carried her around the city to her apartment. She tried to navigate me but she was literally half a sleep so it was really hard. I grabbed keys from her purse and opened the door to her apartment.

"Where's the bedroom?"

"The door on the left."

I carefully opened the door and put her on bed. Her shirt rolled up. I blinked few times so I was sure what I just saw. She had scars on her belly. Even on het arms that I didn't noticed till now.

"Who did this, Amber? Why would you do that to yourself?" I said. It was really hard for me to see her like this.

"It's nothing, Lando you should go." She said and rolling her shirt down.

"No, it's not Amber. Did you do this to yourself?"

"You should go it's late."

"Fuck, Amber respond to my question !"

"Lando it's not your business!!" Her eyes was now watering.

"Was I the reason you did it? Was it because I left?"

"Land-"

"Answer to me." She got up walked to me. We were crying at the same time. And it was really hard for us to look into each other's eyes. She took a deep breath.

"Yes Lando it was because of you. Because you left when I was at my lowest. My parents were arguing a lot and you knew about it. You fucking knew it and still decided to leave me. I really needed you. You were the only friend that I had. You were my best friend!! I was trying to be strong but when you left everything perfect was gone. My dad left and you knew it because he is the Christian Horner and everybody knows him. It was all over the news and you didn't even text. So this" i showed on my stomach " got me through every night I really tried but without you it was hard. And now that I finally see you after those years all I can do is wish we never met." She said like it was nothing. She cried heavily. Nothing could stop her. She wasn't looking into my eyes, she was looking at the white wall behind me.

"Amber, I know you need me. And I fucking missed you. You were the only girl I trusted with my heart and you trusted me with yours. And I know I broke it on millions parts but please believe me that I have never stopped missing and thinking about you. I was a coward. I know. But please don't let this stop us. Stop us being friends."

"Lando you were never a friend to me. You were the first man I was in love with. That I loved."

"Y-you loved me?"

"Lando it's over now you should go home." She said. I wanted to tell something but she stopped me and got me out of her apartment.

That night I didn't sleep. Every moment repeated in my head. Every memory we had, we shared.

AMBER'S POV

This wasn't supposed to happen. All I wanted to call my mom and say what happened but I couldn't. The only thing I could do was look at photos of her. I really miss this mom and daughter bond we had in my life. It was maybe like 2am so I lay to my bed and put the blanket on me.