English Kisses II L.N.

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If you want put traitor by Olivia Rodrigo while you read this chapter🩷

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"What are you doing here Lando? Are you insane?"

"I'm here to talk. And I missed your voice."

"If you want to talk you can leave because that is not going to work. I'm way too angry with you to just talk."

"Okay, I came to apologize."

I nod. He was probably a little bit drunk but drunk actions are sober thoughts.

"I know I was acting like a jerk to you. And I'm so sorry Amber. When I didn't came to the restaurant it was mistake. I was so fucking scared to talk to you, I don't even know why? And it doesn't even make sense. It was the second biggest mistake I have ever made in my life. You wanna know what is the biggest?"

"Tell me."

"That night we met at park. You remember?"

"How could I forget it was the worst day of my life."

I have to be honest I wasn't happy where was this conversation heading.

"Formula 1 wasn't the only reason I left."

He sighs. I could see it was hard for him to say it. And for me it wasn't easy to listen. We made eye contact both of us having watery eyes. He closed his eyes as he began walking to me until he touched my hand and hold it with both of his arms. He pulls me down with him. Now sitting at the floor out backs pressed to the wall.

"I was scared of my feelings for you. I was scared that when I would leave later I wouldn't be able to. I didn't want to hurt myself but I forgot that how it must hurt you. Those feelings I have for you are not like for friends. It is a lot more than best friends could have. I was so scared. And now I am so mad at myself that I haven't told you this sooner. I am sorry I didn't tell you this that night."

"You used present tense do you have them still?" I sob. We cried together.

"Yes, Amber I have them still."

"I had it the same." I wipe my tears

"Had?"

"I'm sorry, Lando, but you hurt me so much that I had to stop loving you."

"I get it, Amber it is my fault. But now you know I will prove to you that I still care for you."

"Lando, I'm sorry but you can try but you hurt me so much I don't know if I can ever love you again."

"It's okay, I'm going to be here. Waiting for you."

"Lando I want you to know I loved you with my heart but I hated just like the same. But there is going always going to be part of my heart that belongs to you."

He wipes my tears of my cheeks with his thumbs. I force a smile at him. His hands staying at my face.

"Can I kiss you, Amber?"

"Lando I don't think it's good id-"

His soft lips now on mine. The kiss was fragile. It wasn't passionate. It was what we both needed. It lasted few more seconds then he parted.

"You are so beautiful, love." He whispered.

"Oh shut up, you are making me blush." We chuckled.

"Wanna get up?" I just simply nod. He put me to bed and then disappeared for a while. He comes back with napkins for me and him. Then he lay down next to me turning off the only light in the room.

"Good night, Lando."

"Good night, Amber." He says as his hand appears on my waist.

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IM SO MUCH MORE ACTIVE RIGHT NOW. I ACTUALLY DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME😂hope this chapter makes sense. also i just listened to "SOUR" for the 3rd time this evening.