random yaoi

chapter 9

Chapter 9

"Tadashi, I think I'm starting to like you."

The silence accompanying between them was so loud that Hiro wanted nothing more than to run off. Tadashi's face was stricken. He seemed to be in shock before he furrowed his eyebrows, confusion filling his eyes.

"You-like me?"

"I think," Hiro added automatically before he licked his suddenly dry lips.

"Hiro," Tadashi said. "I'm not sure what you're meaning. I thought you did like me."

Hiro sighed loudly before shrugging. "I mean," he said. "I-I like you-like the way you like me, Tadashi."

It only took a few seconds before the realisation dawned on his face. "Oh," Tadashi said slowly and Hiro nodded, shuffling on his feet. "Are you-really?"

"Yeah," Hiro said. "Yeah. Yes. Yeap." He was nervous, he could feel his mind working overdrive. He rubbed the back of his neck as he looked away, his cheeks feeling hotter by the second. Silence once again took over before he heard chuckles. Looking back at Tadashi, he raised his eyebrows when Tadashi grinned at him.

"Okay," he said. "So, what do you want to do?"

Hiro shrugged once again. "I don't know?"

"Do you want to be with me?" Tadashi asked gently as he took a step forward but not close enough to breach the young scientist's personal space. "You have to be honest with me, Hiro. If you're not comfortable with what you're feeling, you have to tell me. I'll always be your friend, alright?"

"I do want to be with you," Hiro said quickly. "I'm just not sure how far I can take it with you."

"Physically?" he asked.

"Emotionally as well?" Hiro said slowly. "Physically too. God, Tadashi, you just amaze me. When I first saw you, I really looked up to you, you know? But something in me snapped closed when you just shot down me like that when we studied together. And-and-somehow this rivalry watered my hatred for you and it grew. But then you actually took your time to be with me, you tried to care for me and you finally changed my perspective of you. I was confused most of the time when I'm with you, only that I really want you and I needed you. And I hate it when you're more focused on other people than me and I know it sounds selfish but I just want it."

Tadashi remained quiet, just listening to Hiro babble.

"And I'm sorry that I sound like a clingy brat but-you're the first one to elicit such response from me and you can break through every wall I made by just being you! You're amazing in so many ways and I feel-short standing next to you. I like you, Tadashi. But this is my first time liking anyone like this and the fact that you're not a girl and still managed to sweep me off my feet makes me even more nervous inside. So, what should I do?"

"Well, you're not that short when you stand next to me," Tadashi teased. Hiro just rolled his eyes at the man.

"I spill my heart out and you choose to go with that?" Hiro asked, sounding slightly annoyed. Tadashi just grinned at him before he sighed and shook his head.

"Hiro," he started. "I'll tell you as many times as you need to hear this from me. I like you. Actually, slash that, I think I'm in love with you. And I know this is all new for you but I won't ask for something that you can't give, okay?" Tadashi gingerly touched his shoulder, squeezing it before he took another careful step forward. Hiro didn't shy away and let Tadashi near him, looking at the man in the eyes.

"So, what should I do?" Hiro asked quietly as if they were whispering a secret. Tadashi smiled and at that moment, that smile eased any doubts and questions in Hiro's mind. Tadashi slowly touched his cheeks and cupped his face with both of his hands. Hiro ended up closing his eyes tight, relishing at how warm his hands were against his face. He almost forgot how cold the night was.