random yaoi

chapter 10 (final)

Chapter 10

He had never felt so different before. He never felt so empty before. He felt someone had grazed his insides with a blunt knife, leaving everything jagged and bloody. He felt the heaviness drowning him from within as he slowly sat up on his bed. Running a hand down his face, he looked to his right to the clock. It blinked 3:40 AM in annoying neon green, making Hiro to groan.

He felt his head throbbing and he wanted nothing more but to sleep this pain off. He remembered clearly what Tadashi had said a few hours ago. How the words had stabbed him from within. It made Hiro shudder as he recalled how hurt Tadashi looked. He made him look like that and it made him wonder his self-worth again.

It hadn't even been twenty four hours since they started their relationship and just like that, because of something Hiro thought was better than him-it ended up with an abrupt stop.

'I-I love you, okay?'

Love, Hiro muttered darkly in his mind. Tadashi loved him. He touched his chest absent-mindedly, wondering if he could find it somewhere in his heart to love him back. Tadashi was right. The more he thought about it, the more he realised that he was ruining something perfect with his selfishness. He needed to be sure that he could give back what Tadashi wanted.

But could he?

He liked him, sure, but could he love him?

The young genius shuddered at the thought. He sighed as he felt his head throbbing loudly. He got out of his bed and walked outside of his room, heading to the kitchen. He needed coffee-late night caffeine be damned.

He was exhausted. He felt emotionally drained and he felt physically tired. He wanted nothing more but to sleep all day but his mind wouldn't shut down. It wouldn't give him the satisfaction to just sleep through this dull ache in his chest. He looked at his smartphone's clock, realising it was seven in the morning. He hadn't slept at all since he woke up.

He sighed as he got up from the couch and headed to the bedroom. After having a cold shower and changing into cleaner clothes, he grabbed his smartphone and bag before walking to the front door. Opening it, he found Honey already waiting for him outside.

Immediately, his mood shifted darker.

He wasn't in any mood to deal with some shove talk.

He had seen these types of scenes in the movies before. The best friend would come up to the person and give him the 'hurt her and you'll die' talk and Hiro-well, yeah, he didn't want to hear it. "Save it," he told her before she could open her mouth. "I know why you're here. Consider this heard and leave."

Honey's eyebrows shot up as he walked out of his apartment and slammed the door shut before turning away from her. He adjusted the shoulder strap of his bag before he walked to the elevator. He pushed on the down button and waited for the metallic doors to slid open.

"Huh," Honey said as she slowly stood next to him. "I was wrong about you."

Hiro simply sighed as he walked inside of the elevator, Honey following him. He pressed on the ground floor, waiting for his ride to be over. He crossed his arms against his chest and closed his eyes for a while. His head was still throbbing in his head and it was irritating him. She clicked her tongue and Hiro winced at the volume.

"You sure this is it?" she asked after a while.

"What is it?" Hiro asked finally, opening his eyes and looking at her. "I have a severe headache, so please, just spit it out."

"You two are in a rough patch," she said before she smirked. "And you both are acting like idiots."

"Excuse me?" Hiro said. "I know, I know, I'm not his ideal lover or whatever it is you want to call this. ButI'm not an idiot."