Mine | Jaywon

Chapter 13

Day two of blessing y'all with my uncle jay pics 😌

I love him so fucking much it's unexplainable 😩

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Jungwon pov

"Jungwon... who did this to you" he asked making me lower my gaze.

"I'm asking you something, don't look away" he said again, this time lifting my chin up with his index finger, cupping my face.

"I'm not gonna shout at you or judge you for this, it's concerning and I'm worried for you won" he continued, sighing.

"I did it" I said trying to not sob.

"Why.... just why. Why would you" he asked grabbing my shoulders and slightly shaking them.

"Why do you care?" I said looking away from his gaze.

"You shouldn't care, why does it have to bother you...?" I continued, he moved my gaze so it would be meeting his again.

"Why didn't you ever tell me that you harm yourself" he said taking his hands off my face and intertwined our fingers together.

"I couldn't... even if I tell you, all you'd do is judge me for it. Every person I told this to, did nothing except judge me for it and think I'm a weak and disgusting person" I snarked, a bitter chuckle escaping my mouth.

"I wanna know your past, not to judge you. To find out what kind of love and care you need" he said staring deeply into my eyes.

"Stop it.. stop acting like you care. At the end, you left me too" I said trying to pull my hand away.

"I told you before, I didn't leave you because I didn't love you anymore, I did it because I had to. And I never told you to always love me, at the end you moved on and it's the best for you" he replied.

How, just how do I tell you how much I still love you.

How can I get enough courage to tell you the truth.

I've always lied.

But before I could say anything we both heard a loud thud and a voice from the other side, "Are you both okay inside?! The elevator's almost fixed, please stay patient and calm" said the voice.

"I'm not done talking about this" he said sternly before getting up and reaching for my hand, slowly helping me get up too.

"Thank you" I said slightly bowing noticing his lips curl into an evident smirk.

If he keeps doing this I might faint, not because of the lack of oxygen, but because of high tachycardia. 

Time skip

(Outside the elevator)

I stepped outside the box, standing next to Jay as he was talking to the guy who was working on the elevator, thanking him.

I looked down at my watch before mumbling to myself, "It's too late, I should've been home right now. Did Maeum eat yet?", but I must've mumbled loud, loud enough for him to hear.

"Leaving so soon?" he asked frowning, putting his hands in his pant's pocket.

"I-it's late, what do you mean" I replied.

"Well me you are gonna go grab some drinks later so I'll be waiting for you in the car, see you in 10 minutes outside the building" he said grabbing his keys from his pocket and heading out the building. 

W-what just happened?

That was... hot.

The way he said it instead of asking, hot.