Obsession Aizen x Reader

Heat IV

A growing life.

My child

Our child

Do I really deserve to have a family? I barely deserve you...

As each day passes the spark grows stronger and the arch of your stomach fills the curve of my hand.

I find myself overthinking and burying myself in books, trying to have a solution for every possible outcome of your pregnancy.

'What if something goes wrong?'

It's always in the back of my mind.

I realised for the first time I was scared.

Scared of this new life that I helped create coming into this world. How could I protect this precious life? But as I sit here watching you, as you rest on me.

This is what it feels like to be a parent.

And as your eyes close and my hand rubs your abdomen I'm also afraid for you.

Carrying my child has done nothing but drain you.

Of course, this wasn't a normal pregnancy anyone who could carry my seed would need exceptional Reitsu. But... to see you sick and sometimes even in pain I admittingly didn't account for.

All those months going at it raw no matter how ravishingly good it was I should have been more careful.

Was this really something you wanted?

Was it something I wanted?

Even as my thoughts circulate a deep part of me wanted to observe you in a different light... Compare your symptoms from the 1st month to now.

Had your nightly sweats increased? Were your fever temperatures consistent?

This part of me- observing you like a test subject. 

Just the thought made me sick but in the past, this would have been nothing to me.

Have I completely changed?

Or did I secretly expect this to happen?

Have I forgotten why I initially came here?

The Key...I glanced down at your stomach rubbing it slightly. 'Yes- the key'

Of course, I told you I didn't care about that anymore. Which were true until a few nights ago I noticed something...

A small glimmer, a glimmer of gold across your skin so faint the average person would have missed it.

Unfortunately, now my interest has peaked. My brain runs a mile a minute to figure out what that could be. Were you privy to this? Was this linked to your abilities and even when I think about that there are parts of you I haven't discovered yet.

Your healing abilities with saliva, although I've tested that out quite a few times. The wound heals at an accelerated rate no matter how deep it is as long as the body part is still attached. However, there is an underlying aphrodisiac effect, which is fine between the two of us. However, if we were to go back to Soul Society and you became a part of the medical squad, it would definitely cause a stir.

Not that I would ever allow anyone else near your lips.
Soul Society - I'm thinking too far ahead...

"Aizen-" you shift in your sleep.
"Yes?" Tracing the outline of your cheek. You sit up slightly my hand still on your stomach.
You smile "I'm craving those salty crackers again"
"Would you like peanut butter to dip like last time?" I stand up going over to the kitchen
"Mmm..I think the baby does" felling the kick against your hand.
"Wait?!" I raced back over to you "The baby's kicking!"
"Yep" you nodded "Here" you took his hand placing it on the side of your stomach.
You watched his slightly panicked expression slowly bloom into a loving one. It was rare to see him make much of any expression...but the softness in his eyes and curve of his smile. Filled you with something you couldn't describe but it was beautiful.