Billie pov
Hi babies I'm back and things have been amazing Nothing but amazing
After having my daughter I put out my album "Happier than ever" that was probably my worst Era or maybe it was my blonde hair that fucked I up or the person I was dating problem both anyways. I put out documentary that fucked up some shit and other things went on tour did everything you can possibly think of all while being a mother. Now baby girl is almost 2 years old and this year I want to start new and fresh cut off all negative energy and just focus on my daughter and my music. It's time for a new Era a bigger and better one
2 years later
Yall I lied like hell happier tha ever Era was probably the worst and maybe it was because there was a lot going on at once. 1. I'm a mother adjusting to that is crazy 2. I have to deal with tour and stuff for tour and management and everything under the sun 3. My horrible ass relationships I was in two of the bitches and neither of them was just ment for me seriously lost so many friends shit is sad. Everyone been asking for an album but like whole time I was on tour album making wasn't workin for me and finneas we would even have have fights about it it's hard now because again I'm a mom and finneas is married life is different but on the bright side I did a song for barbie was the most so real experience I have ever experienced I felt at one with the women and the way it brought mothers and daughters together its just powerful and amazing to see it and I love it but it's the end of barbie and now you bitches is getting your album.
Present billie
It currently 4 am I've been sitting in the studio for a long time writing this song. Being in a relationship with someone you think you love and wanna be with but there's somethin that's in the way of you trying to accept that person love and trust and just everything around this whole situation it sucks.
"Things fall apart and time breaks your heart
I wasn't there, but I know
She was your girl, you showed her the world
You fell out of love and you both let go
She was cryin' on my shoulder, all I could do was hold her
Only made us closer until July
Now I know that you love me, you don't need to remind me
I should put it all behind me, shouldn't I?
But I see her in the back of my mind
All the time
Like a fever, like I'm burning alive
Like a sign
Did I cross the line?
Mm, hm
Well, good things don't last (good things don't last)
And life moves so fast (life moves so fast)
I'd never ask who was better (I'd never ask who was better)
'Cause she couldn't be (she couldn't be)
More different from me (more different)
Happy and free (happy and free) in leather
And I know that you love me (you love me)
You don't need to remind me (remind me)
Wanna put it all behind me, but baby
I see her in the back of my mind (back of my mind)
All the time (all the time)
Feels like a fever (like a fever), like I'm burning alive (burning alive)
Like a sign
Did I cross the line?
You say no one knows you so well (oh)
But every time you touch me, I just wonder how she felt
Valentine's Day, cryin' in the hotel
I know you didn't mean to hurt me, so I kept it to myself
And I wonder
Do you see her in the back of your mind?
In my eyes?
You say no one knows you so well
But every time you touch me, I just wonder how she felt
Valentine's Day, cryin' in the hotel
I know you didn't mean to hurt me, so I kept it to myself"
I just sat there and listened to the song over and over just thinking how much I probably hurt my friend and breaking the girl code that's something I never ment to do I didn't mean to fall in love with him maybe I was still hurting from my last relationship and need somebody to fill that void I had or just the attention of a man.I learned my lesson honestly
"Mommy" a small voice pulls me out my thoughts
"Hi baby what you doing up my love" I say pulling her towards me she looks so much like me with a bit of her daddy
"I was looking for you cause I want cuddles also I miss daddy but him butthead" she said I started laughing
"We can cuddle baby but why daddy a butthead" I say picking her up walking to my room and if your wondering no I'm not with her father we just co-parenting the best way we can for her. I'm not looking for nothing with him
" because he was supposed to take for ice cream and he owed me $10 for not tell you he still loves you" she says I just looked at her because one he knows our daughter can't hold water so holding that secret is out da window and two he better take my baby for ice cream
"How bout we call daddy right now and you can yell at him" I say FaceTimeing him as we cuddle. He answered the second ring also its 6 am
" wassup what's wrong? Need me to come over?"
" dude chill we're fine your daughter has a bone to pick with you. Me and you will talk later" I say as I hand her the phone and just let them talk as I doze off still listening to there conversation. I think I like this little life
(Soooooo I'm back I don't know how I feel bout this chapter its currently 4am a bitch tired
But yuh follow me on Instagram @ bilzhotgirlsummer)
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Fanfictionafter jah death billie needed new friends and needed to get out of the house and she did that her friends Dani,prince,Nigel,gawa,the belltwins and more was there for her as she goes through her depression. then she meets que and let's just say there...
